Tomtord

Update on my tummy and a new chapter

Ok so it's been a minute ever since my last chapter and uhhhhh......
I'm sitting on the toilet dying.........there's a roach a few inches near me and I swear if it goes near me anymore I'm gonna run 50000 miles per hour........my tummy still hurts like hell fucking shit bitch ass hoe kill me now I'm pissed off fuck my life I hate this..........sorry u had to read that anyways the roach left.....it literally went into the wall.....thank god I can die alone
😰😰😰😰😭😭😭😭IT HURTS I DONT WANNA MOVE!! U KNOW WHAT IMA WRITE A CHAPTER HERE ON THE TOILET 😂

TORDS POV

Alright so....it's raining and I'm just walking in the fucking rain....seeing all these cute couples under umbrellas.
I saw two guys under a umbrella together and I heared them talking on of them said,"thanks man,u are a good friend"one said,"u are to,I wouldn't want someone like u getting hurt"the other said,i remember smiling,"I need to tell u something"one of them said,"what is it?"the other said,"I l-like u..wait no...I love u "the other said blushing,"I love u to"the other said kissing his cheek, that's all I heard.i remember I smiled and a tear came down my cheek.
I just wish me and tom where like that....

I sit on the bench ignoring the fact that it's raining.alone.sad.depressed....
I wanted to feel loved like that one guy did when he confessed to his crush..but I know tom will never like me back,
He will never like me back.
'U are stupid for ever liking him!'
'MY DUDE! U SAID U WOULD HELP ME AND NOT MAKE FUN OF ME!'
'Oh shit I forgot whoopy '
'Remember that gun u had under your bed'
'Yes?
( WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS)
'Put it to your head and pull the trigger'
'W-what?! Are u crazy?!!'
'Maybe,just do it u will be happy without all of this sadness hehe and I can be free'
'But then I won't see tom again'
'Dude he fucked someone and u STILL love him?!!'
'I guess u are right..'
'Go get the gun...and pull the trigger..'
'NO!'
'DIE! DIE ALREADY U ARE WORTHLESS! U DONT EVEN MATTER!!!!TOM WONT MISS U!'
'SHUT UP!'
'DIE ALREADY!'
'STOP!'
'DIEEEE!'
'FINE!'
'GOOD GO DIE U WORTHLESS PEICE OF SHIT! NO ONE LOVES U!!!!!'
I start tearing up
'CRY BABY CRY BABY'
'No one will care......'
'No one will ever even notice'
'I'm sorry for yelling I just wanted u to know....'
'It's fine.....'

I stand up no start walking home.....I'm gonna do it.
I get home and open the door."TORD!"I hear tom yell,I ignore him and go to my room and lock the door...
I grab my gun from under the bed.....
I hear someone knocking on my door.i point the gun to my head...I start tearing up.. I don't wanna leave tom...I love him so much..
'Pull the trigger'
'Ain't no body gonna do it for u..'
'Pull the trigger'

'Don't hesitate just shoot......'