Transformation - The Start Of A New Life

Chapter 12

Before the chapter starts a little warning. There's gonna be some smut at the end. It's nothing really explicit but just in case you need a warning, here it is.

I hope you enjoy the chapter. Let me know what you think.

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A doctor greeted me and proceeded to tell me that Bucky would be woken up in 3 days. His vitals were stable and his wounds had healed enough so that the pain would be bearable even in a concious state. While that made me really happy I felt very nervous too. Once Bucky was awake I would have to face him and his judgement.

My hand grabbed his tags which I was wearing around my neck since they had taken them off my best friend. They said he couldn't wear metal for a lot of the tests and I offered to hold onto them. My own wounds were practically healed and I was told that nothing would be left behind except a little scar on my right scapula where a piece of concrete hit me that was catapulted into the air by the shock wave after the explosion. I guess I had to thank the serum for that. It's kind of ironic how the thing that got me into this situation in the first place helped me survive. If I was gonna lose Bucky over this maybe it would have been best if I hadn't survived. I couldn't stand the thought of Bucky hating me. He meant everything to me.

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News travelled fast around the base and within hours everybody had heared that James Barnes would be woken up soon. I would have thought Steve would be happy to get his best friend back. After all I had seen how devastated he was the whole time James was unconcious. But he didn't seem to be too excited. When I asked him about it he told me it was complicated.

Since I didn't wanna upset him even more I tried to take his mind of what was going on. The three last days Barnes was in coma we spent almost every minute together. We trained, took long walks, visited Tony and mostly we talked. We talked about everything that came to our minds except what had happened with Steve and his best friend. But that was okay. I wanted to give him all the time he needed and I was sure if he was ready he was gonna tell me.

Over the course of just a few days we learned so much about each other and got closer and closer. I felt a real connection building up between the two of us and I started to notice changes while I was around him. I smiled more and when he looked at me with those baby blue eyes I practically melted and a swarm of butterflies took over my stomach. I couldn't deny that I had developed feelings for Steve but I didn't know how he felt. One moment he was so sweet and caring and the next he was distant and he could have just as well been on the moon considering how far his thoughts seemed to drift away.

The third evening we sat at the bonfire late after everyone had gone to bed. I noticed tears filling up Steve's eyes as he looked into the flames. "You know, Peggy. I never thought anything could tear mine and Bucky's friendship apart. Even when he joined the military and I couldn't we always stayed best friends. When he got so popular with women and I was still the same whimp who got sick easily and stayed home every night we were still as close as ever. I never imagined the person who would break us up was gonna be me.", his voice cracked at the last sentence and the first tears left his eyes.

"Why would you say that you broke your friendship? What happened wasn't your fault." "Tony said the same. But if I hadn't insisted on saving those men we would have been out of the building in time and Bucky would be alright now. It is my fault. I shouldn't even have been there. I acted without instructions, I thought I could do it on my own. I got carried away with all my new strengths. And I clearly didn't know what I was doing. If Bucky hadn't gone after me, I would have died in there because I misjudged the situation and I was too weak to leave those men behind. Men that worked for our enemy. My body may have gotten stronger but on the inside I'm still the same kid that was too weak and too sick to be accepted into the army."

I wrapped my arms around him. For a moment I got distracted by the strong muscels under my fingers but I quickly collected my thoughts. "Listen, I don't know how your friend is going to feel about this when he wakes up but he would be an idiot if he blamed you for what happened. A friendship like the one you two share doesn't end just like that. You have to trust that James will see it the same way."

"Yeah, we've really got an impeccable friendship, don't we? Friends. Best friends, exactly what I want.", he said to himself so silently I could barely understand it. It might have been imagination but I almost thought he was being sarcastic. But that didn't make any sense. He quickly caught himself though and put on a straight face. When he turned to me we were really close. I could feel his breath against my lips and his eyes were piercing mine.

I don't know what got into me but in that moment I closed my eyes and pressed my lips on his. I immediately pulled back and looked down to the ground in shame. "Hey", Steve said softly with his amazing voice and put a finger under my chin to make me look at him. Then he slowly moved in closer before he closed his eyes and layed his lips on mine. It was a soft and hesitant kiss. I could tell he wasn't sure if he was doing the right thing. But as the kiss lasted he got more and more confident. It turned into a very passionate one and our hands wandered along each other's bodies.

I moaned into the kiss and I wanted it to last forever. But far to soon Steve broke away to gasp for air. "I have to confess something to you, Peggy.", he said, "That was my first kiss. Was it bad?" "No, it was spectacular. Are you sure you haven't done this before?", I asked still catching my breath.

He didn't answer, he just looked at me. And then he grabbed my waist and pulled me close. He pulled me up so that we were standing by the fire. It was very warm, standing besides the flames, our bodies pressed together. He presses his mouth on mine again and this time we didn't stop. I took him by the hand and pulled him into my tent. The other girls were out on a stake out. When we arrived at my bed I sat down and pulled Steve close by grabbing his shirt. He took my shirt by the seem and pulled it over my head. His lips found their way to my neck where they probably left a few bruises. I on my part took off his shirt and threw it on the ground. I took my time to admire his impressive physique. I had seen him shirtless right after the procedure but his abs got even more defined since we had been training a lot. My hands followed the lines of his muscles down to his belt buckle, which I opened. Steve started breathing heavily and I knew I was gonna make his first time one of the best memories he had ever had.

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We've come a long way folks. What do you think about Steggy. Is it serious or is Steve just trying to take his mind off Bucky? You'll find out soon enough. Sorry for the smut but I told you it was coming since the start. I don't think I'll put in anything more explicit than this but I'm not entirely sure yet.

That's all from me for now. Hope you enjoy and all that's left to say is bye. See you soon!