Sarah one shots

But I don't want to lose you pt 2

Billies POW:

"She is dead dad, she isn't going to come back ever again!! Do you even get how it feels to lose someone like that?" I said without thinking, I know my dad lost mom, he lost the love of his life and now I made him feel so bad

" I am going to leave you alone for a while so you can think everything trough, okay?" My dad said, I could see that he was hurt.

" Whatever." Was the only thing that came out of my mouth

Later that night

" Billie, Billie help meee, BILLIE HELP ME!!!!" I woke up the second I hit the floor

~ It was just a dream I said in my head, just a dream.
I know it was a dream but it felt so real.
I saw someone in my room when I was going to go back to my bed, someone was sitting in my chair by my desk, someone that I could recognized, she was so familiar and that blonde hair were so beautiful. It was her, it was Nora, my Nora.

"Nora is that you?" I asked carefully

" Billie? I taught you were sleeping!" She said

" No I had a bad dream and woke up, but why haven't you answered me when I called your name"  I asked

" Because you needed to have the time, but that didn't work so I knew I had to come back to you, when I died I couldn't find my body so I panicked because I didn't know what to do, then a lady came and recognized her from pictures in your house, it was your mother that came to me. She told that she had a way to make you happy again." Nora said

"Are you going to leave me?" I asked and I was terrified for what the answer was going to be

" Yes I am, I can't be here forever, I can't see you grow old, or grow old whit someone new, I have to leave you again, I am so sorry. I can't handle seeing you with someone else." Nora said

" But I can't handle that again, you can't leave me again Nora." I said

" I have to, goodbye Billie, we'll see each other some other day, okay?" Nora said

" No Nora don't go, NORA, please!!" I said crying
" PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME, NORAAAA!!" I yelled

" What is going on, are you okay?" My dad asked

" Yeah, I just had a bad dream that's all." I said to him, I know that he knows that I was lying but I tried

" Don't lie to me, you saw her didn't you?" He asked with a gentle voice

" Yeah and she just left, she just left me alone again." I said crying in my fathers arms

" It is okay honey, it is going to be okay." My father said and placed a gentle kiss on my forehead
" Here you go, sleep now, you are going to school tomorrow and you need all the rest that you can get." He added

"Okay, I'll try to sleep, goodnight dad, and thank you. " I said

" It is okay, goodnight my princess." He said with a smile, he knows that I hate being called princess, but this time it felt really good
So I just smiled back at him

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3 months later

" How are you feeling Billie, you never do anything in class and you never talk, you just sit there in your seat doing nothing." My teacher said looking at me

" I am fine and I don't need your stupid advices, okay?" I said

" Okay if that is what you think then I suggest that you go home and take a weeks break, Okay?" She said

" Whatever." I said

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On my way home I went in to Target to get something to eat, I picked only candy, and then I went to the section where they had razors, Yeah you heard it right razors. When I bought everything that I wanted I went home and sat in my couch in the living room and turned on a movie and ate my candy.
Later I went in to the bathroom, I locked the door, even though my father wasn't going to be home for like 5 hours, I still locked it because what if he came home and saw what I was about to do.

I was breathing loud, I just looked at the razor, should I really do just this, I have the opportunity to end it all in this exact moment. I didn't end it.

" 1 and 2 -annnd 3, aaagh." Was all I said when I made a very deep cut on my arm
" And again, come on Billie you can do this." I said and made four more cuts
I cleaned my mess up and went back to the living room and finished the movie.

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1 week later

My thoughts were getting darker and darker, I don't know what to do anymore, the bad spirits are here now, the say that it is best to end it, to end my pain because I am not worthy being on this planet.

I went in to the bathroom and took my razors out, I filled the bathtub, and stepped into the bathtub and cut my arms, no one could save me now, I am dying, I killed myself, it was so easy. Why haven't I done this earlier, why did I live so long with this pain?

I heard my dad, I saw him run into the bathroom, my body was just lying there, that's right I'm not in my body anymore and that's because I am dead, I am sad that my father have to go trough another funeral. It is sad seeing him so sad, but he'll get better, he will because he is stronger then me he is stronger then I ever was so I know he'll get trough this and move on.
And that's exactly what he did, he found a woman, they got married and they adopted a child.
And me, I found my happiness with my one true love, my beautiful blonde and blue eyed girl and I are together again, Nora and I forever.
The End

" Are you coming!" Nora asked me while going in to my study room

" Yes in a minute, I am just going to finish the book." I said to my wife

" Oh you are finally done with the book!" She said

" Yes, just in a minute." I said and put the finished book on the desk.

" Come on now, your father is waiting, he is so excited to se his granddaughter." Nora said

" He is going to see our little baby, our baby!" I said with an exited voice and placed a kiss on my wife's lips 

"I know, our little Hope." Nora said

" There she is, little Hope, she is so tiny." My father said with a tear in his eye

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That was the end of this storyline, I hope you like what I made of it, and if you don't then tell me and I'll make a better one next time. Bye for now
~ A