This poem is about an abusive relationship, and dedicated to someone I know who went through this. Trigger warning ahead
You seemed so amazing
Truly you did
You seemed like the man I always wanted to be with
But then your true colors showed
You're cold, rude, and disrespectful
You never cared about me
You always put me down
But I never saw it
I only wanted to see the best in you
I accepted your excuses
I forgave you multiple times
Even when you didn't deserve it
Because I thought I loved you
But no you choose to make me feel like the bad guy
I guess our relationship meant nothing to you
For a while it seemed you were the one
Don't you remember those first couple months?
When we were inseparable
When you were kind to me
When you treated me like a princess
Those months were the honeymoon phase
I felt enthralled by you
And I thought you cared about me too
But then that had to end
At first it was subtle
But then the signs slowly became more obvious
You shot down my voice
You became harsh towards me
You didn't seem to care about me anymore
You treated me like I had no rights
Everything became toxic
But I didn't care
I wanted you to stay
And you did
You acted as if you were doing me a favor
I only saw the roses you gave me, but not the thorns that lied within
Every time you were cruel to me
I took every blow silently
Even though I couldn't fathom why you would hurt me
Even when you belittled me in front of everyone
I still stuck by, despite everything
When everyone asked me why I stayed
I would defend you
I just didn't want to believe it
You were my heart
But as the abuse piled on
I couldn't take it anymore
I became numb to every single thing
I wanted to die because of you
You ripped my heart out of me and shattered it
Why? Why did you hate me so
I guess I'll never know
Because I finally learned to respect myself
And leave your sorry ass behind
Your dead to me now
Only a ghost of my past
A toxic reminder that I should be careful with my heart
Goodbye
I don't need you anymore
I'm done with your games
And I'm done with the abuse
Goodbye asshole
I don't need you to "love" me
I'm done with your games
I know who will give me the love I deserve
And its not you.
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