Pensive Thoughts

Death

Who is Death?

Is he our friend?

Or is he our foe?

How should I feel about him?

Death was always a constant figure in my life

I knew him from the day I was born

I felt his his icy presence as he stared at me

I felt him when he destroyed my life

For you see death doesn't just take people

He takes anything he wants with no regard for others

Friends, Family and everything I've loved have gone to him

But what is it that makes him so appealing?

What does he have that I don't?

What charm does he have to bring people to him?

Why does he want to hurt me?

He took away my friends and family

He took away the first person that loved me

He's given me nothing but pain

Pain and sorrow just follow him everywhere

But people don't shrink away from him

They go to him

Like a moth to a flame they burn

And I'm there to pick up the ashes

Instead of letting my tears fall softly

I cry out my heart out

Like a damm bursting open

I let it all out

As my heart is breaking

I weep and rail at him

"Why must you torment me so?"

"What have I done to deserve this fate?"

He stays silent

He doesn't have the courage to reply to me

Although he took away my loved ones

I still want to know what is his secret

I should hate him

Truly I should

But how can I hate someone that appealing?

Destruction and sorrow follow his path

But instead I find myself to be intrigued

I should be stronger

I know I should

But I just can't

And I hate myself for it

My strength has failed me

And there's nothing I can do

Every day I grow weaker

Every day proves to be a test for me

My end is drawing near

I know that to be true

Friends and loved ones weep and bewail my fate

Now it's their turn to feel my pain

But I can't hear them

Instead of sadness I feel relief

Instead of alarm I feel calm

Pure relief and serenity

The only things I can feel right now

Where are my other emotions?

Have they abandoned me

Why have they done that?

I need to feel something other than these two foreign emotions

But now I can't

Now I see why Death is so loved

He takes away your pain

In place of that pain

Joy is placed

All that suffering is gone

You look forward to him coming to you

For Death will take you home

He will give you back to your maker

And everyone you love will be there

Now you will be truly happy

How didn't I see this before?

How could've I been so blind?

But now I see how foolish I was

The truth lies before me in all of its glory:

Death doesn't choose favorites

He just puts everyone out of their misery

For in the end we are all mortal

In the end we are all equal

Well now I know

Give me rest

Let me see my loved ones

Take me home Death