My Poems: My Soul

bedtime lonliness

Everyone knows what I'm talking about
At least the certified sad kids do
The ones who grew up depressed and alone but held it all in
It can be the best day ever
Every stoplight was green, the best show is on tonight, my dog fell asleep on my lap, for once I was able to eat dinner without the thoughts

Then the sun sets and it's time for bed it's so lonely at this time
Suddenly I am a small child curled up on a tear stained pillow with a large moon hovering over me
It's daunting, the moon is so big and I am so small
I am nothing
I start to remember everything awful about me, about my existence

The lights were probably green because I was driving recklessly, no one else likes this show it's going to get cancelled, of course my dog laid on me my giant body takes up the whole chair, that dinner is going to make me even fatter

This is how everyday ends
Listening to sad music and thinking of terrible things
I've come to realize that I am alone, but I never feel quite as lonely than the loneliness I feel at bedtime