Random Thoughts

Invisible

You can't see me, can you ?

Yet here I am.

Here I am, in the middle of this crowded room.

But you can't see me.

So how could you even see the war inside of me ?

How could you see my silent tears ?

How could you see me slowly dying ?

Are you even watching ?

If you were, you would notice.

How little I ate.

How much weight I lost.

How sad I became.

How invisible do I feel.

How useless do I feel.

How unloved do I feel.

But you don't pay attention.

You don't care.

I am here right ?

I stand, right ?

So why would you worry ? Why would you care ?

Maybe if I finally just killed myself you'd suddenly care.

Maybe if I wasn't alive anymore you would finally understand how bad I needed you.

Or maybe not.