Eighteen Seconds Until Sunrise |||POETRY|||

Pieter Pan

There's a tightness in my chest,
Forbidding me to catch my breath.
So many questions flooding through my brain,
It's no small wonder why I'm in so much pain.
I don't know if I tried too much,
Or if I just didn't try hard enough.
There was a spark when we first met,
But I guess I'm the only one that felt it.

Pieter Pan has gone back to Neverland,
He never even held onto my offered hand.
I won't let him see these tears that I cry,
Won't even ask if he ever gave a real try.
Big Bad Wolf rears his ugly head,
One wrong move and I'll be dead.
He said he'd protect me from harm,
But he's the reason for the manmade cat scratches on my arm.

If you didn't want a relationship,
Then why initiate it?
If you don't want a relationship,
Why escalate it?
You bought me the ring of eternal love,
Crimson lines on my wrist I now scrub.
I told you that you were the first,
But now I see I have been cursed.
Love is an imaginary thing,
Pain is all it will bring.

White Rabbit now return to Wonderland,
Tell the King of Hearts all you do not understand.
Beg for mercy,
Make him see!
They'll paint those white roses red,
But it's from the scars of yours past bled.
Beg for mercy,
"Please spare me!"
Beg for mercy,
But you'll be his queen.

Contradicting words you do spew,
So then why am I still in love with you?
A fearsome lion named Leo,
You have crushed the venomous Scorpio.
Get your foot from off my throat,
On my heart I'm already begun to choke.
Why did I ever believe you could love me?
I thought we were simply meant to be.

What happened to you wanting to spend the rest of your life with me?
What about all those daydreams of us cuddling?
You said I was your one and only,
Promised you'd never leave me.
You told me calling quits was the last thing you wanted.

Pieter Pan,
Was this all part of your plan?
I wanted to be your Wendy Darling,
But now I just want to stop crying.
It was all too good to true,
Yet I still gave my heart to you.
You crushed it with one bare hand,
You kicked me out of your Neverland.

I know it's not right,
But in me is still fight.
You can keep what remains of my broken heart,
It was yours from the damned start.
At least tell me what I did wrong,
Or you deceived me all along.

Pieter Pan,
I don't wanna be your friend.
If you could only see,
I could never be your bestie.

You didn't fight enough,
I tried too much.

You never loved me at all.