Four Ones

Chapter Four

~ Raven's POV ~
~ The Secretive One ~

I ignore Wasp the whole day. I can't face her, not after I stole a kiss from her crush. She's not one to forgive, or forget. What have I done? Shit, what have I gotten myself into? Why did he kiss me? Why did I kiss back? Why did I smile? What is wrong with me?

Nothing. Nothing is wrong with me. I simply enjoyed something for the first time in my life. Surely, she can understand that I only wanted to feel something other than numbness and pain. Surely, she'll hear me out. Surely, she'll forgive me and forget it ever happened.

But I don't want to forget it ever happened. I want to go out with Caleb. I want to kiss him. I want to smile with him. I want to think of him. I want.... I think I want to love him.

Speaking of the devil.

I stand at my locker, smiling stupidly, as Caleb walks up to me, the same giddy expression on his face. This is so i usual of me. I never smile. Especially at boys.

"Hey," he says when he reaches me. "I never got your number."

I don't trust myself to speak, so I smile and write my phone number on a piece of paper and hand it to him. By the time the bell rings for my next lesson (lunch just finished), Caleb and I have exchanged smiles and laughs, but barely any conversation. We've been occupied, staring into each other's eyes.

As I watch Caleb walk away, guitar strapped to his back, guilt overwhelms me once again. What about Wasp? She loves him. I love him. Who does he love? I wish I never met Caleb, but at the same time... I can't imagine life without him. This is stupid. I am stupid. I only just met him, for crying out loud. Wasp only just met him. The Creature sister's are a pair to go down in history, for sure. If only I knew what goes on in that boy's mind. That beautiful boy's beautiful mind...

Get a grip, Raven. Get a damn grip.

I continue to ignore Wasp and Caleb, too, for the rest of the day until I'm lying in bed, winded.

Another panic attack.

I feel as though large hands are crushing my vocal cords. I feel as though rough hands are hammering one after one i to my chest and stomach. I feel as though nothing except death can save me now.

My chest is rising and falling as if I can breath, but all the air has left my body. My legs feel like jelly, weak and floppy. If someone came into my room and snapped my legs in two, I probably wouldn't notice. As if the devil has heard that thought, my door creaks open.

Wasp? Tiger? Alpha? Caleb? No. My father.

This isn't real.

No way this is real.

I was there when he died.
Heck, I was the one who put the damn bullet through his head.

It is then that I realise... there's still a bullet hole in his forehead. The rim is stained with filthy, burgundy blood. The skin around it is grey, unhealthy. It's as though he's never seen the light of day. I suppose he hasn't. He's been buried as deep into the earth as possible in a dark coffin.

He's dead.
He's not real.
He's not here.
This is fake.
This is just a nightmare.
Just a nightmare.
Just a simple nightmare.
Just... a nightmare.
Nightmare...

And in this nightmare, my father is holding a dagger.
And in this nightmare, he is talking to me in the voice of Chucky.
Why is my life a horror movie?

"Hello, darling daughter. Long time, no see..."

He's edging closer.

"You've always been my favourite child."

He's standing over me in my bed.
I'm paralysed.
I'm sweating.
I'm crying.
I'm screaming.

"Time to wake up, darling daughter."

His voice is drenched with that American accent of his that has haunted me all these years.

"Raven..."

His voice... in my ear... it's changing.

"Raven!"

Changing into something... familiar.
Changing into... Wasp.

"Raven!"

Changing into... Tiger.

"Raven!"

Changing into... Alpha...

"Raven! Please!"

Changing into... Lia.

My eyes snap open. I'm alive. Oh God, I'm alive. Then I see it. A shadow. Above my bed. In the format of her. Lia...

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So... Raven's in love with Caleb, but so is Wasp. Raven killed her father, Harrison. When did this occur? This will be revealed in the next chapter, which will be told from Lia's POV. But who is Lia?

Sorry this chapter was so short. Xx