Edited 3/2/21
Yn•
I can't do this shit no more man. When Jahseh said "can't keep my dick in my pants", he didn't lie. I give him chance after chance and I put up with his shit, and still he cheats.
I'm done with all of this shit, he can keep everything he's bought me and give it to that bitch Genitalia.
I was packing the stuff I got myself when Jahseh came upstairs for the first time in 2 weeks, "Baby, watchu doing?" He asked, I didn't dare to look at him, I continue to throw my things in my bag, "I'm leaving."
"Why, shorty whats wrong?" He asks, ignoring him, I zip my suitcase and put it on the floor, "Yn, talk to me." Jahseh says, grabbing my shirt from my hands.
Finally I look at him and huff, "Because, you're never here! You're with that bitch Genius! If you want her, be with her but at least me know! I'm tired of sitting here waiting for you to come home, I'm tired of getting cheated on, you make me look like a fucking clown Jahseh! I feel like you forget I'm here and its better for me to leave so you can be with Genitals." I explain before pushing past him with my things
"Yn wait!" He yells after me
A single tear fell down my cheeks as I walked out the house. I got in my car and drove off to my sisters.
(6 weeks later)
"When are you and Jah-." My friend Passion asked, I cut her off by raising my hand, "Nope, dont speak of his name." I sipped on my capri-sun
I'm in my own apartment by myself, lonelier than a bitch. "Girl, I know you miss him." She smirked causing me to roll my eyes, "Not one bit!" I smirked back lying through my teeth
I miss the hell out of Jahseh's ass, but I've been talking to this guy named Drake (no, #disrespectfully❤️), but I feel nothing with him.
"Girl look at what I just sent you." Passion says with a bright smile on her, I clicked on the Instagram notification from her and a video from TheShadeRoomTeens popped up
Liked by: 109,784 people
theshaderoomTeens: Is this @xxxtentacion 's way of saying he misses @xxxyn and isn't with @liar anymore?
xxxtentacion: @xxxyn , i love you.
13 minutes ago
As a fair warning to everyone listening to this song
I advise you to not hide your feelings
Don't pretend to be okay when you're not okay
Don't pretend to be happy when you're sad
It'll only lead to your misery
Don't you fucking hate it when you hear my name?
I feel the same and when you hear this you gon' feel the pain
And all these niggas that you fuckin with to get away
But girl I know you think about it almost everyday
And I'll be honest I be jealous of these niggas, true
How you feelin with these niggas that you talk to?
Captivated by your mind and your walk too
Can't replace you with these bitches that I talk to
This ain't lust, it's love, we had trust, what's good?
I should've held you close, should've kept you warm
And when the rain is fallin', wonder who you call
Don't pray to god, you rather cry than call
Don't jump, pretend it don't hurt
Repent, I won't stomp, my feet in a rage
My nigga I'm no chump
Need you and I crave you, hate you
Think I ripped the wings off of my fuckin' angel
It don't hurt me, damn
It'll be alright soon
I'll forever be the
I'll forever be the elephant in the room
I'll always love you
I'm sorry
By the end of this song I was in tears, I didn't even know Passion had left. Exiting out of instagram, I dial Jahseh's number and on the second ring he picks up, "Hello."
"What does it mean?" I softly asked, "The song?", "Yes."
A second of silence passes by before Jahseh replies, "It means I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you, I'm sorry for cheating on you and lying to you. I don't want Geneva, I want you Yn. I miss you. I love you. The 'I Will Always Love You' part meant if you never wanted to be with me again, I would never lose my love for you." He explained to me
Closing my eyes tight I bit my lip before letting out a breath, "Jah." I mumble softly, "Yn." He replies, "I-I miss you, I miss is. Can you come over?" I offer softly, "I'll be there in 20."
