SECRET ADMIRER

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[ 2 DAYS UNTIL BALL ]

[ A/N: btw just in case anyone was wondering: this story isn't time based, but i wrote them to be 16 or over. you could say that this story is based on the time of the half blood prince ig? but you could imagine them in 8th year if you like :) ]
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Dear Harry,

I can't believe i'm writing to you this early in the morning. But Merlin, I am so bored, I have nothing else to do.

Sleep? Who's that? Never heard of her before.

Are you alright? Asked the guy you like to the ball yet?

Ps. I really hope I didn't wake you, I apologise if I did.

Ps/2. Maybe if you tell me who you like I could help you more? It would be easier... but.. your choice. No pressure.

Love,
Your secret admirer.
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Dear my secret admirer,

Hello. You didn't wake me by the way, I was already awake.

And no, I haven't asked the guy I like to the ball yet. I don't know why I haven't done it, if he says no I could easily say I was joking. I just can't bring myself to actually ask him though. I've took your advice on how to hint to him that i'm interested in him, but I don't know if it's working.

His best friend recently shouted at me, i'm still not sure why, but they seemed really angry with me. I figured out that i've done something to upset him. Is it bad to apologise to someone when you don't know what you're apologising for?

If i'm being honest, I think he deserves better than me, way better than me.You must see where i'm coming from.. right? I can't even ask him to the ball, I don't even know how I hurt him. I used to hate him! Full on hate him!

I called him disgusting. Isn't that terrible? Who am I kidding? I've hurt him so badly, all I used to do was insult him, why would he ever want to be with someone like me?

A while ago, I told him I wasn't going to the ball because the person I like wouldn't want to go with me. Surprisingly, he told me the same thing. I was shocked, honestly. He's a great guy, he's so amazing, how could anyone not want to go to the ball with him? If only I knew that person, I would tell them what they're missing out on.

People always tell me to try and stay positive about my feelings? How though? How exactly am I meant to do that?

We had a fight, in moaning myrtles bathroom, (this was before I realised that I was in love with him, by the way.) Well I wouldn't call it a fight, it was mainly me.. being a dickhead. I don't think I told you this already, actually i'm pretty sure I haven't told you, but basically, this is what happened.