Inconvenient To Adore (bxb)

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I felt like I couldn't breathe standing outside his door, he lied. I mean it's not really my business I suppose. I can't be mad at him for not telling me because than I'm making it about me. The thought didn't go so well in my head. Being at Onyx funeral? I should've been there, should've helped him. He said he needed to figure it out on his own- did he lie then too?

"Are you gonna go in?" Malia asked as she was watching the scene unfold.

"I don't know. What do I say?"

"Just talk, I'll be out here I don't want to be invading" She said taking a seat in some chair she stole from the room next store.

"Maybe I should just act like I don't know still" I started but then a frown came on my face, if Malia is with me, Jermain doesn't fuck with him anymore and Kendrell is leaving or already left- he's alone. He's been alone after all that being alone? I touched the doorknob and before I could think about shutting the door Malia pushed me in and slammed it behind me, I walked through the curtain and there was Nobody in here, I looked around cautiously, oh no oh no oh no oh no- he's dead. You were too late. I felt a sudden wave of nausea at the thought of that before I heard a toilet flush I whipped the tears which were falling like an idiot away fast as I heard the sink turn off then a bathroom door opened and out came Onyx. My eyes met his before his met mine. He had Ivs in and out his body bandages on his arms, he wore a muscle shirt and sweat pants but his bags were worse then ever.

"What are you doing here?" He asked as he walked towards his hospital bed. I didn't know what words to say first. My mind was racing and all I could do was blink. He exhaled probably getting impatient so I opened my mouth but closed it again. "Genacis you standing here looking like you seen a ghost"

"You lied" I started as he laid down, "I thought everything was fine, it wasn't you're not" I added "and you weren't gonna tell me, nobody was?"

"You was busy anyway" he mumbled and I raised a eyebrow. "Look mane I'm fine you can leave now"

"I'm not leaving" I said my voice raised as soon as the sentence started. "You can't just stay here alone"

"I'm a grown ass man, take your ass home Genacis you want me to put your name on that list so you can't see me?" My eyebrows furrowed together and I blinked a few times to stop the tears but the came anyway

"I-I'm t-t-trying to help" I said whipping my face as fast as the tears fell.

"You not bout to waste your break sitting in this room. Stop helping me and help yourself" I could tell he was getting frustrated by his tone, his voice was lowering an octave each time I argued back but I couldn't leave him here. "Stop crying" he added.

"You still think about doing it again?"

"Genacis"

"Onyx!" I added and he exhaled before opening his arms and like everyone predicated I walked right into them. I wrapped them around him and he picked me up placing me on his lap. He whipped my face before holding it in his hands.

"This why I didn't tell your cry baby ass" he mumbled.

"Tell me what's in your head. You probably been lying to these people too" I said in a whisper.

"Who you been letting mark you up?" He said changing the topic and my face grew red.

"I asked a question first"

"It doesn't matter I gotta fight it, imma be okay"

"You need to tell them the truth, them and you can work together to find your peace" I said and I could tell he was half listening. "And make up with Jermain" his face went straight.

  "He the one whose out here spilling my business?" I blinked a bit I didn't get why he was so mad at me finding out,it was just me. "Keep ignoring my questions" his hands traced my hickeys and he smacked his own lips. "You dating this nigga?" I shook my head probably to fast and he nodded.

  "I didn't hear screaming so I tho-ohhh y'all nasty" Malia dropped her sprite making it open as she went to cover her eyes.

  "We're not fucking, now look what you did" onyx moved my body so I was sitting next to him leaving my legs over him.

"I don't care I'm no-ah shit" and down went Malia sitting on her own drink. I felt my phone buz but it seemed I was in a more important place.

  "Are you okay?" I said leaning over the side of the bed to see her on the ground with her eyes close, onyx pushed me back into him before pulling me closer, I knew his stubborn ass missed me, but Naoki - Well me and Onyx aren't something but as soon we
Naoki heard his name he's gonna be pretty upset.

  "I'm fine, I'll be okay imma just go get some ice" she said holding her chest.

  "You know the fact you never said homeboys name now I know you fucking with that black Asian nigga" onyx spoke up.

  "Anyway, where is your brother then if he's not here?"

Onyx smacked his lips "he's on probation he can't come down till January"

  "Are you going to be out by Christmas?" He shrugs, "well atleast try? What is Malia gonna do? We are going to put up decorations tomorrow they can't be for nothing" a small placed on his lips, and he nodded just a bit.

  When visiting hours were over me and Malia went to get her something quick to eat I was gonna invite her over but she had plans to talk to this boy so I let her be, she wasn't my little sister and I did only live next store. Driving down my street I heard my phone keep going off, I  pulled in front of onyx head to check my phone.

  "I'll see you later" Malia said I nodded looking at Xavyers text.

Xavyer
  Tf you @?
I'm at your house don't come home!!
   & I'm not allowed over for a few weeks.
I beat up your dad again
   Hello?!
If you see him that's on you I warned you

My father? Oh hell His was suppose to stay in motherfucking - I heard the car door shut and I did a Xavyer and got the fuck out of there