Love At First Text | Minsung (COMPLETED)

23.

my mental health is deteriorating
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Minho 💞:
I heard you haven't been speaking to
Felix recently

Jisung:
gee I wonder who told you that

Minho 💞:
You can't be mad at Changbin for telling me

Jisung:
yes I can he needs to stay out of my business he shouldn't be telling you this

Minho 💞:
you're right

Jisung:
thank you

Minho 💞:
YOU should have told me before but it looks like you weren't intending to

Jisung:
I don't want to talk about it

Minho 💞:
you know what I can't anymore
I just came to tell you that Changbin wants you to unblock Felix so he could explain do it if you want
Jisung at this point I don't care I give up good luck

Jisung:
I'll talk to you later or
whatever I can't with you
right now

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unblock 'Memelix'
yes|no

Jisung:
you wanted to talk?

Memelix:
first of all i'm sorry for not telling you

Jisung:
go on....

Memelix:
when I was younger I started to like boys...I didn't think much of it, I didn't think it would be a big such a big deal so one day I told my parents then everything went downhill. My mom was super okay with it she knew for a long time and completely supported me, but my dad got really anger at me he was and I quote ashamed to have a son like me. He became physically abusive towards my mom and blamed her for making me like this I just couldn't take it anymore so when he tried to hit her I'd jump in and take it so she wouldn't have to deal with it even though she tried to stop me from getting involved multiple times. A guy named Chris came along he made me happy when I was with him I felt wanted and special then one day we kissed , my dad found out from the principal some how, he began hitting me more after those days I started denying my sexuality I'm afraid to tell people and relive that day the day when my dad who I thought was the most amazing person looked at me like I was a mistake. My mom couldn't take it anymore so we moved here and lived with my grandma. I don't feel comfortable with talking about sexuality so I just don't  that's why I told you it was someone else. I hate that part of myself because it caused harm to my mom and myself.

Jisung:
no I should be apologizing I'm a terrible friend I went off on you without letting you explain I'm sorry you had to deal with all of that Felix. none of this is your fault you should be able to love who you want.  move on from that and be happy cause you deserve it.

Memelix:
thanks for understanding

Jisung:
ofc now tell me about this Chan guy

Memelix:
where do I start...

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I

didn't update yesterday cause I was having some serious doubts about this book I was honestly having a terrible mental break down I almost stopped writing in general I just got so discouraged and thought about what a horrible writer I am but I'm back and I'm okay for now anyways I'm leaving peace 👊😔

February 14  12:33 am

signed A 💕🌈