You told me I not worthless..
That whoever left was dumb.
But you also left.
I got used to you, your habits, how clumsy, weird, everything.
I waited for you and when you said that you believed in love but didn't know it, I was willing to give you my all for you to know it.
And I did, I gave you everything even my secrets; maybe I was right when I said you loved your truck more.
"Ur silly"
Are the words that don't leave my head.
I was myself again because of you.
I told you my wishes, things about me that no one knows; made you part of my world, my loves, and you left because it was too weird.
I wanted you to be happy, with or without me.
You were a nervous wreck but I loved you...
Your jokes, your smile, and the hugs even though they hurted me sometimes.
The constant use of "i like you" kept me happy, more when you said it.
I let you become my happiness
Because I believed that you were here to stay...
I never understood "mythical" btw.
I also can't use the word "duck" anymore.
I thought you understood so I said it all.
You were the total opposite of me,
You hid and faked so much...
Somehow you healed me then destroyed what you did.
You made plans that you didn't intend to keep.
You told me I was in your mind even in dreams.
You now forgot me, but I feel haunted.
I cry, I don't sleep & you haunt me.
"Oof"
"Poco uno"
"Pequeña"
You know my fears.
You became another sleepless reason.
I'm still sorry for not asking to hang out that Thursday.
let's be dead together.
You weren't lying when you said you were uncompromising.
I regret not taking your hoodie.
A holiday trip to the Bermuda triangle sounds great right now...
Maybe I did scare you, and pressured you, I'm so sorry I'm restricted, sorry my friends are weird.
Sorry that this wasn't enough.
This is the last poem I write about you.
It's been enough for me, more when all I was for you was a waste of time.
I know that you think you didn't do much but oh hunny you destroyed me.
I'm letting this go using the memory of your smile.
I'm now in control.
