Alright this is literally me just typing out whatever comes to my head because I need to just speak or in this case type because I have so much energy right now and I'm kind of in my room way past when I'm supposed to be asleep. There's probably not going to be much punctuation and this'll be long so I'm sorry in advanced and this is all stream of consciousness style(ha like the Thomas Sanders vine you'll probably not get that I'm just a huge nerd) and I don't really have a life this is really just me trying to burn off whatever either nervousness or energy I have because I can't really tell the difference. Alright so for the past hour I've been listening to the new Jimmy Fallon interview with Daveed Diggs where he raps a part of his new song, which I now have memorized, and all that stuff. I've also really been listening to In The Heights intro song over and over and also have that memorized except for the Spanish. Oh yea next year I'll be in HS which will be fun. I plan on taking French there because why not. I also really love the drama and chorus class they have there. Wow I can't spell. Does anyone who for some reason is reading this sometimes completely miss words when typing or writing and your now a sentance ahead but you can't type or write that fast? Yea I have that all the time. I also have really messy handwriting so that doesn't help. I love doing fonts though and writing calligraphy. I love art in general honestly. I took art as my elective last year and I hoped to get into adv art this year but I sadly didn't and I was pretty sad about that. I'm so happy autocorrect is a thing or else I wouldn't be able to type worth shit. I can't spell very well and that's annoying. I never got 100% on a spelling test my entire elementary school. Wow I forgot how to spell elementary. Maybe I should sleep. Nah. I hate sleep. I hate the process of falling asleep the most. I can never just relax. My brain had to go a million miles per minute no matter what. My cousin told me I seem like the kind of person with crippling depression and ADHD because I smile and laugh alot and can never hold still ever. I think I'm just a happy person even though I know I'm not always but it's alot easier to hide your feelings then show them. Wow that got dark real fast. Oh well. I've been told I joke around too much which I always find hurtful for some stupid reason. I mean, I love comedy. I would love to be a comedian or an actor or a Broadway performer but everyone in my life says that those goals are really unrealistic and I shouldn't set my sights on something that will get me no where so I chose civil engineer. I love science and English but I'm not good at English which I'm really sad about because I think I can write but alot of people tell me I'm not a good writer. I just realized alot of people tell me bad stuff and I let them. I have good friends though. It's not like I'm bullied by them. I mean, I am bullied but not by my friends. It's a stupid kid that I won't say the name of. He likes to make fun of me for having C grades even though he's failing almost every class. This got real deep mad quick. Damn, I should fix that. Nah. None of this is edited, by the way. I know it's stupid but I wrote this all just to kind of calm down. I'm sorry to anyone who read all of that. That's another thing. I apologize too much. It's compulsive. Sorry to anyone I apologize to too often. Anyways, I'm calm now. Byee. This was 680 words.
