Only Us

Bathroom Stalls

"Mom I'm not going back to therapy!"
I yell annoyed with my mother

"Evan after all that's happened I don't think you have control"
She says.

"Mom I'm fine"
I lied as I ran up the stairs and slammed my bedroom door.

I opened my drawer and fiddled with my razor until I finally popped out the blade.

I sat on the floor of my dark room with tears in my eyes

I began to slice at my flesh wincing in the delightful yet agonizing pain.

Drips of blood leak as I move the blade to start a new line

In about ten minuets there are already seven clean cut lines following each other on each wrist

I quickly rushed to my drawer grabbing bandages and rapping them up before changing into pyjamas and going to bed

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I wake up to my alarm blaring loudly

I try to use my arms to prob me up but my wrists ache

I open my eyes the light from outside blinds me

"It's May of course it's bright"
I mumble to myself

I unwrap my arms seeing the very visible cuts

I groaned before putting a hoodie on.

I looked beside my bed seeing my blade which I quickly stuck in the hidden pocket of my backpack made for pens and pencils

I got ready for school and headed out without saying good bye to my mom.

I walked to school and when I got there nobody was standing outside which way unusual.

I walked to my locker to see everyone crowded around.

Emails from me and 'connor' were plastered all over the front pictures of me and Zoe on dates pictures of me and Connor in the computer lab

I quickly ripped the pictures off and ran to the bathroom.

I looked beside my bed seeing my blade which I quickly stuck in the hidden pocket of my backpack made for pens and pencils so my mom couldn't find it while I was at school

I got ready for school and headed out without saying good bye to my mom.

I walked to school and when I got there nobody was standing outside which way unusual.

I walked to my locker to see everyone crowded around.

Emails from me and 'connor' were plastered all over the front pictures of me and Zoe on dates pictures of me and Connor in the computer lab

I quickly ripped the pictures off and ran to the bathroom.

I hid in a stall opening up my backpack and finding the blade with blood on it I had hid in my backpack a little while ago