oh how she blushes

cameron.

cameron; he is the one who i let get away. i didn't realize until it was too late.

cam was never the prettiest of the pack. but he was never left out. he would willingly drown in the words of billy joel and radiohead. he played his music like no one else.

when we laughed together, explosive supernovas went off in my head. just talking made stardust fly through the air. he always made me smile. i called those smiles the cam smiles - i never felt, nor ever will feel, that way again. it was like god was having an encore of creation, and the angels were singing the songs of rebirth. when i was around him, i was a universe, and i was always so ready to flourish. 

for once, i was able to look past everything that was set in front of me. my shallow, shallow heart dove straight in, and it dove deep. i loved the feeling of loving for the insides. 

but it was a mere phantasm of love. i loved us, i loved our friendship. but i was in love with the way that cameron made me feel. i was in love with the fact that i thrived around him. my own galaxies were created around cam. and i am forever in his debt.