What the Quiet Girl has to Say

There's something wrong with me

It's me, Jess

I have a problem

what do I feel that in some way the world revolves around me

I don't even understand myself sometimes

Understand anything anymore

I'm not depress

It's just that ...

My head

my head...

I just want it to stop

the way that I think

I don't want to think like this no more

I don't want to like anyone anymore

I wish I didn't like anyone

Never had crushes or guys that I thought were cute

Never thought that guys liked me

I don't want to care about that

Because...

I'm so self involve

I'm not seeing things in a bigger picture

Do I get crushes quickly

freshman year I had 2 crushes

I was confuse

maybe

but it was merely a crush it never got further than that

I don't want to like anyone anymore

Please don't look at me

because I might think you might like me

I don't know what's wrong with me

I'm so self centered

I'm self centered

I don't want to like anyone

I feel as though that'll be easier

I guess I should start praying about this

because it really bothers me

If this is normal then I don't want it

I don't want to have crushes I'm saying

Because I'm so self centered

...

I look at myself in a reflection then be disappointed

Why do I think I'm Beyonce?

I mean I'm not lol

why am I so self centered

why do I Feel that most guy thinks i'm attractive

is that so?

no guy has ever talk to you, Jess

I think you should just stop right now

but how?

STOP!

I don't want any crushes anymore

I don't want to like anyone anymore

I'm fine

just tired

I'M SO SELF CENTERED

but why

I'm okay

somehow this is so deep but I can't even see it

I don't want to care anymore

I'm so self centered

but I know with God i'll get through the storm

so I feel fine

I feel so self centered sometimes, God

I don't know what's wrong with me

since 2nd grade

Do I get crushes easily?

I think I have boy problems

Normal

idk

I'm ok

I know that i'll get through it with God

this is a feeling I didn't even knew I was sad about

I feel so self-centered

-jesss

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Hi Jess here!

I know this chapter may be depressing and maybe confusing to some readers. I feel that it's okay to write what we may be feeling inside. This chapter is basically a diary on what is going on my head.

After writing this, I prayed because again I didn't realize this issue was more deep than I thought. Prayer is what helps me. I just want you guys to know that whatever you're battling know that God is here with you and loves you. Know that even in the darkness of the dark God will hold your hand through it.

Here's a verse that I like psalm 23:4 -"Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Your rod and your staff comfort me" Saying as though any dark points in our lives or minds God is here with us. <3<3<3 Can I get a Amen.

I encourage you to write about your feelings and pray about it. It can be anything that's going through your head. Just write it down & pray. ❤️