What the Quiet Girl has to Say

The eye part III (the last)

We graduated...

That's when I knew it was over

Bittersweet was the feeling

So I think back of the memories that was there

I remembered first day of senior year

I was walking under the pavilion with my phone in hand

I stared at my friends table

there were some new people sitting there none of my friends

I wondered where they were?

As I walk in confusion, I also was thinking about the nervousness of seeing my crush

I look down at my phone ready to text my close friend

I texted her , 'where are you?' hoping to get a reply

I looked back up

The eye

The eye was looking at me

This was the person I was nervous to sort of see

I don't know what my feelings were then

or how I really felt when I saw him

But I saw him looking at me as if he's trying to hold it together

As if by seeing my appearance was a shock

I don't know how to describe what he may have felt

For me my thoughts were, my outfit must of really looked good today

Because the first day of school I was wearing an outfit that my sister helped fix out and I thought I looked really 'glow'd up' 

I kept walking forward

I noticed that he went to his group of friends on the side again looking like he couldn't hold it together

Again like a shock or admiration

I'm not sure

I walked closer enough that I was now near him and his friends

I glanced to the side to see what was going on I supposed

Out of routine my insecurities came to play

I was wearing my last year backpack to a new school year

That thought made me walk a bit faster

Yup such a little but stupid thought right?

On the contrary, I also was happy at the fact that my backpack was low enough to cover my butt

One of my insecurities

I know I don't have the biggest butt so I've never wanted to show it. People in my generation glorified girls with big butts and quote on quote 'thick girls'. I'm not thick and also don't have the "luxury" of a big butt. 

So that backpack was a relief

A small but calmness relief

Luckily I found my friends

and that was that...

However it wasn't

1st class gone by

then 3rd

then now 5th since today is odd day classes

5th period was over

We was done listening to rules and all the other boring stuff 

When I walked out that building I rub my eyes in tiredness