it was the first day of reception. i knew nobody. no one. everyone had someone by now. except me.
it was break time. and i was alone in the playground.
and then i seen my soon-to-be best friend.
he was sitting on the swings. a groups of girls on the next swing, teasing him for being alone. i knew his name. his name was bill. it was bill.
i went over. and stood up for him. the girls left.
and then i asked.
'Hey,' i was nervous. but excited. i could have a friend. i asked if he wanted to be friends. 'do you want to be friends?'
and he said 'yes.' he said yes.
that was the best day of my life. he said yes. and he bill was my new best friend.
the abby came in the group in year three. and richie joined the school when we went up to middle school. and we were all great friends.
the best of friends.
but you were always my first friend. and the only one i could confined in. it was always you.
at the start of middle, you and abby were there for me. i was a big phat puss- i was a phat mess that day. i was so scared. abby- of course- teased me. but she helped. and you helped too. you helped.
we looked out for each other, day after day. year after year. and we never fell out.
then i fucked up! i upset you. i hurt you. i should've excepted you.
i knew there was something different about you.
i just didn't think it was this. i didn't think you were g- i didn't think you were gay.
but that's okay. and i support you know. but not soon enough.
cause your dead.
your dead. and it's all my fault.
your the one who gave me the nickname alec. cause you could never pronounce your Xs.
i'm sorry, i hope you can forgive me.
and i love you. your like a brother to me.
goodbye. and i hope to see you soon.
