Should I Tell? / l.h

Chapter 7

I keep replaying the events of tonight over and over in my head. I can't get over how amazing it was, how amazing it was to be with Calum, how amazing it was to kiss him.

But then I find myself thinking of Luke, and thinking what it would be like to kiss him? And whether he would put so much effort into the first date as Calum did? I think he would, he seems like the romantic type.

I really Calum, I do, but what if I don't like him enough? What if I'm just using him as a distraction from Luke and April? I need to figure it out soon because I can't lead Calum on and let him think that I like him, that's not fair.

To : Lexie

From : April

Heyy, I know it's late but do you think I could come over? xx

To : April

Yeah of course, just come when your ready xx

Ten minutes later and April is sitting on my bed filling me in on all the gossip that I've missed, which isn't much. I still haven't told her about my date with Calum, I think I might have to.

"do you know the way I thought things were going well with Luke?" she suddenly seems nervous, she's fidgeting with the tassels on my pillow and she only does that when she's nervous or worried?

"you've only been speaking for a week but it's been a good week hasn't it?" from what she's told me, it sounds like they had an amazing week?

"well, it started off good I guess but the last few days he's been really weird and quiet around me, so I asked him about it and he said he'd tell me later, said he didn't want to tell me in front of everyone, so I figured it was important and said could come over to mine to tell me" she went really quiet, which is unusual for April because she's a talker, a big talker.

"did he come over?"

"yeah, after he left I came straight here"

"so, was it good news or bad news?" she's worrying me now

"he said he liked someone else, he wanted nothing more than just a friendship with me and that he was sorry if he led me on" she couldn't have said that faster if she tried, it must have hurt her to admit to someone that Luke didn't like her after all

"aww April, I'm sorry, you can do better anyway" I've never had to comfort her in this way before

"I really liked him Lex, it didn't feel like just a fling or something stupid, I actually liked him and he just shot me down" I can relate, trust me, I just can't tell her and I'm not telling her about Calum, not tonight anyway

"do you know who the girl is? you know, the one he claims to like?"

"he said I know her but wouldn't give me any names, said he didn't want to hurt me or something, he didn't stay long after that, there was no need to really, so I text you and here I am"

"here you are, do you want to stay? I mean it's already late and my parents won't mind, your practically family" we both laughed because my parents have always treated April as their own daughter, I always assumed they liked her better than me.

"yeah sure, why not? It's been a while hasn't it?" it has been a while since April stayed at mine but we don't need to stay in each other's houses every weekend to prove were friends, we need our space sometimes.

April fell asleep about half an hour ago and I'm still wide awake, just looking at the ceiling and thinking, thinking about everything, Luke, Calum, April, what will happen? Luke likes someone else so I might as well try and move on now that I know that, I think I'll give Calum another shot, he seems sweet enough and I really do like him, I just don't know if I like him enough and in the meantime, I will have to find someone for April otherwise she's just going to be miserable for god knows how long.

*beep beep*

Who's texting me at half one?

To : Lexie

From : Unknown

Hiii, do you wanna go out for lunch or something tomorrow? xx

To : Unknown

If you tell me who this is, I might consider it? xx

From : Unknown

omg I'm sorry, I got your number from April, it's Luke, so what do you say? Tomorrow at 'Bert's' for 1pm? xx

To : Unknown

Yes:) xx