Should I Tell? / l.h

Chapter 33

I pulled myself together before I walked into the living room where Luke was. I needed to calm myself down, otherwise I wouldn't be able to say what I want to say.

"is it true?!" I didn't even give him time to see who it was but he didn't need to look to know it was me, it was jump off the couch in an instant,

"what?" he looks confused, trying to play innocent when I know it's all act, it always has been,

"is it true that those three weeks you ignored me you were with April?!" he just looked to the floor, and I was growing impatient, "well, answer me!" he immediately looked up at me, startled that I was shouting, so was I

"yes it's true but Lex I'm sorry, I really am but I swear to you nothing happened, I - " I cut him off, I didn't need to hear anymore

"get out"

"what? we're not even going to talk about it?" why on earth would we talk about it?

"there's nothing to talk about Luke, I'm fed up of playing games with you, I don't want to be just another of your girls that you 'mess' with, you've already messed with me enough and I've had enough" I don't want to end this but there's too much damage and I don't think he can fix it this time,

"so, what are you saying? you want to end this?" he almost sounds sad, but I don't trust him anymore,

"you can't end something you didn't start" I tried to stop the tears from falling, but once one dropped, many more followed

"c'mon Lex, don't be like that, I know you don't want to end it, I don't want to it"

"I can't do it anymore Luke, it's one problem after another, it never ends with you and I'm ending it before you can" it's true, being with Luke is too exhausting, I didn't know what to expect when imagining being with him but I sure as hell didn't expect this

"please Lexie, one more chance that's all I'm asking for, I promise you I'll change I will because I l-"

"don't say it, I know you don't mean it" if he says it, I won't be able to follow through with this

"but I do mean it Lex, an I know you feel the same way" I do feel that way about Luke but I can't let him keep hurting me

"I don't" I watch his face drop and it broke my heart, "I think you should leave" I watched the person I love walk away defeated.
Whoever said 'if you love something set it free and if it comes back it was truly yours' was the biggest dick ever, because what if he never comes back?