Going Too Far

part 4

I stared at the wall as I waited for the last bell to ring so I could go home. It was finally Friday. The past few days had been boring and uneventful. After I had my melt down with Marc we had been more friendlier towards each other. At first I thought it would be awkward since we kissed or almost kissed, but he acted like nothing happened. Well at least he acted that way when we were with other people, but I would catch him looking at me or giving me a secret smile and a wink.

    My feelings for him were so mixed up. I was scared that since he knew my secret he would tell some one, but I had to trust him he wouldn't do that to me. I liked him a lot,

my feelings were mixed up I felt warm, wanted, happy, nervous, and plenty more. He made my heartbeat a little faster, made me fidget and I couldn't look him in the eyes. If I did I would forget what I was about to say and made me blush.

    Yeah he was hot so I figured it was from that. But it wasn't just his looks it was how he would say the right thing and actually listen. I felt mixed up and confused when I was with him. I sighed in frustration, I need to stop thinking about him. I shook my head as the bell rang making me jump.

    I gathered my books as fast as I could and got to my locker in no time. Shoving some books in my bag I slammed my locker shut and turned to leave only to bump into someone.

    "Sorry-" my words getting caught in my throat when I looked up at Marc's smiling face.

    "What's the rush?" I blushed, which made him chuckle.

    "Nothing." I mumbled.

    He laughed and shrugged it off. "Do you need a ride today?" He asked.

    I shrugged looking for Trinity. I wasn't sure if she had practice or not.

    "Come on." He said grabbing my hand and pulling me down the hall way.

    "What?" I gasped trying to pull my hand from his, but his grip so to strong.

    I followed him knowing my attempts were weak and pathetic. I climbed in his car silently crossing my arms across my chest.

    We stayed silent for most of the ride. My heart was beating slightly faster like it always did when he was around me.

    I looked over and studied him. He seemed a little different from the last time I saw him. He seemed more toned, his muscles weren't over the top body builder type but I could tell they were more toned. His facial features seemed different to, more strong and defined, his nose straight and seemed perfect, his lips looked soft and kissable. I blushed and averted my eyes from his lips to the window.

    "Do you have any plans tonight?" He asked suddenly.

    I jumped from the sudden break of silence. "No?" I looked over at him.

    "Good." He said then mumbled something I didn't understand.

    "Why?" I asked. He shrugged and parked the car, he turned to me smiling. I narrowed my eyes very confused. What is going on with him?

    "Do you want to do something?"

    I hesitated. "Now?" He nodded his head. "Sure." I shrugged.

    "Excellent." He smiled and got out, I shook my head and followed him into my house. Why are guys so weird?

    "What do you want to do?" I asked following him into the kitchen, I jumped and sat on the counter.

    "What do you usually do?" He asked searching the fridge for something to eat.

    I traced my cuts feeling the rough edges against my finger tips. I felt an ache for the smooth blade.