Cavities

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    I hated who I've become, I stopped going to school which makes me upset. I haven't even seen my mother in a week maybe even two.

      The other day James brought up something about a foursome. Thomas was all for it which made me overthink.

       Currently still over thinking. I stayed in his mothers closet most of the day, just crying my eyes out.

Once I heard him leave. I got out of the closet and into his room. I shut the door and unlocked his window. I climbed out and sat on the roof.

"Hey Thomas is looking for you." Jesse said.

"I know." I said.

"Jackie where have you been?" Thomas asked.

I just shook my head not even looking at him.

"I'll leave you two alone." Jesse said.

I heard him step onto the roof and move down next to me.

I didn't even look at him, I just look off into the distance.

"Jackie have you been crying?" He asked trying to touch my face.

I moved my head the other way so he couldn't.

"Jackie are you okay." He asked.

"Obviously I'm fucking not."I said still looking off into the distance.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" He asked.

"You're totally cool with fucking a whole different bitch." I said.

"I don't want to fuck another bitch, I thought you wanted to so I was down." He said.

"He didn't even ask me first, he asked you and your like "fuck I'm totally down" and you seemed pretty excited about it." I said.

He just sat there with me in silence. I felt him staring hard too then I knew he noticed them.

"Jackie." He said quietly.

"What?" I asked.

"Please don't tell me you did those." He said pointing to my thighs.

"What your gonna care all of a sudden?" I asked.

"Jackie I'm in love with you." He said.

"Obviously fucking not." I said standing up and stepping back into the room.

I went through the dresser and found some pants and put them on. I slipped on some shoes.

"Jackie where are you going?" He asked.

I grabbed one of his hand guns and turned around.

"Don't fucking worry about it." I said pointing the gun at him.

"Jackie put the gun down." He said.

"No." I said grabbing my phone and a hoodie.

"Please." He particularly begged.