Chapter 9: It's broken-hearted and it's gone
"Taehyung..." He sobbed into the call, shakily.
"I broke his heart.
But I think it's for the best.
I h-hated it Tae, he was so sad.I ended our battle
I thought it would stop the pain
The tears aren't stoppingLoving him is hard
But it's the same for him too
I know better to stop cryingI knew he was struggling with it
I got a call from Jackson that day
I really wanted to help himCompliments and Gifts
I tried it allBut when my help turned into hurt
I saw him fallLying breathless and thin and tired
Remember how he wasn't showing up?He was crying inside
He didn't laugh, he faked itMy heart really fell
I'm shatteredBut I shattered him too
And I broke his heart."Taehyung replied hesitantly,
"I'm sorry, Jin
I should've told you
I kind of noticed itBut after you did I think
I'm not happy eitherHe's busy all the time
He never comes home
He never calls, texts
I'm missing his "I love you"
And it's kind of breaking my heartLove's really complicated
It's so selfishWe wanted them
But why are they drifting apart?
They wanted us too
But why are we at fault?I love you
Stay strong beautiful
It's all meant to happen anyway
But we can find happiness in the littlest thingsBye."
He cut the call.
He blinked back his tears.
He terribly missed Jungkook.He heard his voicemails, that he repeatedly tried to send. Always delivered but never opened. He heard them in full volume, swallowing the silence with his desperate voice.
"I miss you, baby,
I miss your bunny smile
I miss your touch
I miss the way your lips feel against mine
I miss hugging your strong arms
I miss your well-planned dates
I miss our late night talksI miss all and every inch of you"
You said you wouldn't sleep on me
You said you wouldn't leave me hangingWhere are you now?
I haven't seen you in months nowHe plopped his phone beside him defeatedly. His hands moved to his head easing the splitting headache he had caused recently.
26 missed calls.
He remembered making each call. The annoying ring that seemed to go on forever never connected to another voice.
Instead, it just fucking beeped and stopped.His emotions were getting the best of him. His eyes shut in pain and he tried with all his might to fight the frown that appeared on his face and caused his face to scrunch sadly. A single tear cascaded his cheek, and he knew he had lost all rights to stop his feelings that were streaming down his face freely. He buried his face in his knees, and allowed his emotions to take control as his muffled cries and sobs echoed the lonely apartment with its booming voice.
The tables, full of food waiting for someone to come and visit it stood lonely. All their favourite DVD'S and CD'S remained unplayed and stacked below the television, Taehyung missed their movie dates and cuddles.
His heart was empty but the place was flooded with their memories. Their scents, the writings on the walls, sounds that boomed and echoed around the house, how they used to sing to each other, intimate sessions and moments that were precious and treasured.
His head dizzy with constant stress and burdening thoughts, he barely heard the faint click of the door opening.
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