"I keep on teasing you because that's the only way I can keep on denying that I love you, that I need you and that I wish you could be with me".
To learn you need to love, but then if you fail again... what's next?
To love you need to trust. Trust i...
"-Ready to celebrate our anniversary? – Hyunjin asked as he started to hug you tightly.
-I'm so ready – You smiled before looking at him. -What is your plan? – You asked.
-Maybe watch a movie and sleep late – Hyunjin chuckled. -I'm sorry for the trashy anniversary, I wish I could've come earlier – He said while looking at your hand.
-Hey, is alright. I'm not upset, and I love your ideas – You said while caressing his hair.
-You do? Well, what if we eat something and chill out tonight? Or do you want me to talk for hours about you and how much I love you? – Hyunjin asked while snuggling against you which made you giggle instantly.
-Talk of me for hours? No way you can – You challenged.
-I can describe you entirely, say how amazing your heart is, and the beautiful moments we already lived – Hyunjin said while hugging you happily.
-Okay, okay, I believe you – You giggled before pecking his lips playfully. -But I can gush more about you – You teased.
-Yah! Jagiya, you'll make me blush – Hyunjin complained cutely.
-You always do – You smiled.
-Just because is you – He chuckled. -Miyun, I'm happy to have you – Hyunjin said while holding your head in between his hands.
-I'm happy we are together – You grinned.
-Yes, and we'll be for more years – Hyunjin said while looking at you happily".
It would've been nice to live that day together as we wanted.
Almost two weeks had gone by since your fifth anniversary with Hyunjin, and ever since that night everything changed for the worse; you found out that day about your brother's secret and the reason behind his nearness with Sophia. You thought she was crazy but now, you think she's mad in all the ways; she threatened Jeongin with ruining your life and Hyunjin's by telling his manager you two are dating, and by being your brother's girlfriend. You know your brother well, and you are sure that he would do anything to make you stay happy.
For said reason, you decided to do the job yourself and the night Hyunjin and you were supposed to spend together, was the moment you decided to call it an end. Or it's supposed to be. Your brother didn't want you to break up with Hyunjin, so both of you agreed on giving each other some time until Sophia leaves both of you alone. But when is that going to be? Who knows? Maybe never.
Right now, you are at school grounds. The boys weren't in classes all day long since they had a very heavy schedule today, which is good since you want to take advantage of that and finally talk face to face with Sophia after so long.
-Hey! – You shouted as soon as you saw Sophia going towards the front gate.
-Oh, Miyun – Sophia stopped walking and then stared at you with a smirk. -What do you want? – She asked.
-What I want is impossible – You admitted.
-Why? Do you want to return with Hyunjin? – She chuckled.
-I want you gone; I want you to disappear – You told bitterly.
-How nice of you – Sophia rolled her eyes. -Do you have anything interesting to tell me? – She asked.
-No, I just want you to know that Jeongin didn't do anything, I did it myself – You spoke.
-Well, that's good – She said. -At least you are intelligent, Miyun. For a second, I thought that Hyunjin was washing your brain with his fake love – Sophia chuckled a tad.
-He never lied; you are the one washing our minds with your lies – You stated. -It doesn't matter now, but you'll go down one day – You vowed.
-I can't wait – Sophia said before she started to walk away.
I never hated someone so much, why are you doing this?
*HOURS LATER*
You are back home after having such a hectic day at college, and right now you can lie to yourself; you wish you could have Hyunjin by your side since you are sure that his energetic and happy mood will make you feel so much better.
Briefly, you went upstairs and left your backpack beside your desk, then you immediately laid down on your mattress. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath while trying to let your stress out when suddenly you heard your phone rang, so, you picked it up and noticed you had a new message.
Hyunjin?
Instantly, you stood up from your bed and sat down on the edge of it; you are looking at the notification which made you notice that it was a voice mail. Without hesitating more, you opened up the message.
-Hi, Miyun. I know it might be weird to hear me again after two weeks or so, I haven't lost the count and it's actually driving me insane – He chuckled, then continued. -I'm sorry that Sophia is making this to us, and that she's making your time more difficult than it already is. I'm not the best at words, but I gradually started to get better with your help. So, now I can say clearly how much I miss you, and how much I miss our times together – Hyunjin told before taking a pause.
-The other day Felix and Changbin were bothering me and asking me how we didn't get bored that easily when we were together, and I just couldn't answer since I truly don't know that myself. I believe that the time passed and we were just laughing at silly things, talking about us, and seeing everything both of us like – Hyunjin said a bit emotional. -I know what I'm about to say sounds rude but, I've noticed how you are avoiding me more and more each day at school, and I don't like that. I had to build a thick skin for Stays, after all, I don't want to worry them. But I can't deny that in the inside I'm actually terrified; I just feel you'll forget about me and leave me behind, even though we didn't break up and I still know that you are mine and I'm yours, I can't deny I feel fear – Hyunjin said before sniffing.
-I'm not crying, don't worry – He took a deep breath. -Just tell me if you still love me, Miyun, because I honestly don't want to lose you completely. I love you, Jagiya... never forget that – He said before the voice mail ended.
You looked down at your phone as tears started to drop one by one on top of your hand, gradually, your sobs started to be heard and your heart started to fall down into pieces. Hyunjin has never talked like this before; without hope, empty, with fear, and just broken. You know he had rough times before and that he suffered from depression, which makes you worry more since you don't want him to lose himself and fall down again.
