"I keep on teasing you because that's the only way I can keep on denying that I love you, that I need you and that I wish you could be with me".
To learn you need to love, but then if you fail again... what's next?
To love you need to trust. Trust i...
Hours passed by inside the studio, everyone kept on planning what to do with Miyun and the relationship we stood back for some time. The boys are creating various ideas which are absolutely amazing and unique, however, I don't feel like doing them since I still feel bad for hurting her with these complications.
Currently, everyone is getting ready to go back to the dorms since we want to have one night all together preparing the plan to have Miyun back with me, yet, I don't feel like going and I just want to go to my apartment and stay the night there.
-Are you ready to return to your good old busy boyfriend days? – Jeongin asked while walking towards me, then he sat down on the floor.
-Do you want me to be honest? – I questioned.
-Of course, I do – Jeongin nodded.
-I don't think I should go back with Miyun this soon – I told.
-Why's that, hyung? Don't you love her? – Jeongin asked confused.
-I do, I truly do but I hurt her so much and I just don't want her to feel pressured – I explained. -You need to understand that I just want the best for her, and I know she needs time to heal after the things Sophia did to her – I said while looking down to the floor sadly.
-Hyunjin-hyung, you know that everything that happened isn't your fault, right? – Jeongin said while looking at me concerned.
-Maybe it is; I never told her about Sophia since the beginning, and I never warned her what could happen if she dated me – I told. -Miyun suffered by being with me, I even hurt her with my words – I sighed.
-So, what do you want to do? – Jeongin asked.
-Nothing, give her time to heal and feel better with herself... she needs to return back to her happiness again – I smiled mournfully.
-What about you? – He asked.
-I'll be alright; I'll be happy if I see her well again, after all, she has helped me so much throughout these months we've been together – I admitted.
Jeongin held my hand gently before leaning towards me, he surrounded my body with his arms and started to embrace me warmly against him.
-I-I don't want you to be alone – He stuttered.
-I won't be; I'll stay the same, I promise – I assured while hiding my face against his neck. -I love you – I stuttered.
-I love you more, hyung – Jeongin said while caressing my hair gently.
*Hours later*
-Jeongin's POV-
Yet again I returned to my house and Miyun isn't anywhere to be found, she might be inside her room again just listening to some music as she tries to keep herself on ease. I feel bad for her, for my hyung and for the ones involved in this issue; I feel they don't deserve what's currently happening, and that they should be happy as before.
At the moment, I'm nearing the kitchen as I listen to some music on my phone when all of the sudden, I faced my sister, she's sitting down on the corner area where we have the little dining table. It seems that she's lost inside her thoughts again, briefly, I sat in front of her and looked at her concerned.
-Miyun – I said while touching her arm with my finger but she didn't reply.
-Yang Miyun, are you there? – I questioned while moving her hand gently.
-Oh, sorry – She said while looking at me with a slight smile. -You returned early today – Miyun noticed.
-Yeah, the manager needed to get some things done for us – I said while looking at how she started to get distracted with her coffee again.
-What things? – She asked.
-Personal issues with one of the members – I explained, trying to see if she captured who I'm talking about, still, she stayed the same way and it seems she didn't care at all. -Don't you know who I'm talking about? – I asked.
-No – She shook her head.
-Hyunjin-hyung – I said, making her look up at me immediately.
-Why? – She questioned confused.
-Both of us talked with the manager today, little sister, and now he knows about your relationship with him – I explained. -The rest of my hyungs joined and thanks to them he's going to help us with Sophia – I added.
-He's truly an angel, I hope everything gets better after Sophia goes away from our lives – Miyun smiled, but she didn't look as happy as I wanted.
-Yes, I hope so too – I sighed. -Listen, I talked with Hyunjin-hyung and he isn't doing well, I think he's worse than you – I admitted.
-Why do you say that? – She asked concerned.
-My hyungs were planning different ways to get both of you back together but Hyunjin-hyung wasn't really into them, and in the end, he denied all those plans and decided to stay alone at his apartment instead of going to the dorms with the rest – I disclosed.
-D-Do you think I should talk to him? – Miyun stuttered. -After I received his voice mail, I wanted to reply to him but I still don't know how – She told.
-He wants to give you time, so, don't feel bad if you don't reply soon – I said while reloading my chin against my arm on top of the table.
-Time to heal... yeah, I suspected that – Miyun sighed.
-Should I be more worried about you two? I feel bad for not being able to help you – I spoke while looking at her concerned.
-You are doing just enough, Oppa – Miyun smiled before kissing my forehead. -I'll go to my room, goodnight – She said before standing up.
-Goodnight – I said while she got out of the kitchen, I just sighed deeply and stood up from the table, and placed the dishes she used on the sink.
I turned around and reloaded my back against the counter, then I took out my phone and looked at my background; Hyunjin-hyung and I just hugging each other happily, and it's sad to see it nowadays.
I try to stay positive; I try to think that everything is going to be alright and I just want to imagine a happy ending for everyone. I think I'm not asking for a lot; I'm just asking for the things I had before everything became a huge mess.
-Hyunjin, stay strong... everything will be better – I said while looking at my phone screen with the picture of the two of us.
