Doodle's 'doodles' 3 ✔️

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Note : Read if you want. This is just for me to vent

Hey me,

You have too much in your head, you're overthinking, you haven't experienced that in awhile.

Every place you go is a prison.

Stop lying to yourself that everything is going to be "okay" "fine". It's pathetic.

Every single lie you tell yourself is just going to make you depressed by the day. You can't breathe normally anymore, your chest is closing and you need alone time.

But you also need someone.

Everyday that passes feels like an eternity. I know that you know that you only have one life. Though, people love you. Love is a hard word to swallow right now.. It's okay, take your time.

Stop calling yourself selfish. You matter too. I know there are people with worse situations but, care for yourself.

You want to make people happy, so happy to the point that you don't care about yourself. Read your fucking notes for god's sake.. "Am I happy? No. Then hide it and make THEM happy you idiot."

I am disappointed in myself. Everyday, it's a damn routine at this point.

I know you feel stuck, but all I could say is to wait. I am not the greatest in advice but y'know.

Edit : I'm sorry to my friends, that I am an annoying, selfish brat. I try.. I really do.