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Scared

Everything screams yes

Then doubt whispers in my ear "no."

I space out

Thinking, analyzing, dreaming

and trying to push it all away

Its weird

how you can want to push someone away so far

but want to pull them in so hard

because you want them there with you

but you want them to be gone

Because you care

but you don't want to hurt

I don't want to do something stupid

Yet I somehow will

Why though

What did I do

Why am I afraid

When you fall there will be pain

So I am afraid to be happy

Scared it won't last