Insecurity | Jikook √

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Days turn to week,  weeks turn to month and months turn to a year...
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"Jungkook,  Jimin doesn't love you!!  Why can't you see that!! Why can't you love me instead? I won't leave you... Ever!! " Lisa pleaded

Ever since Jimin left,  Lisa had been like this , extra clingy ,extra flirty , and even went too far to confess to me,  in front of the world, where cameras were all flashing.

Ever since that day,  the crowd and news had totally forgotten abt Jimin,  it's always about Lizkook,  Lizkook,  Lizkook!!

I've never felt so pressured even though this has happened in the past

Now I guess I know how Jimin felt at that time. He must have felt so insecure,  since im spending so much time with Lisa as 'best friends' , and he have so suffer through all those media postinf abt his boyfriend with another girl....

Flashback

"jungkook,  please eat something, or at least do your make up!  We need to make a v live later! Don't you wanna live anymore?!?! " Suga threatened

"Jimin's gone hyung! I don't wanna live anymore! There is no longer any meaning in my fucking life!!"

"JEON JUNGKOOK! STOP THIS SHIT NOW! NO MATTER HOW MUCH UT HURTS YOU ARE STILL A IDOL!! FUCKING PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER" Suga yelled fhruously,  giving me a harsh slap across me

"IF YOU HAVENT HURT JIMIN ENOUGH,  IF YOU HAD STAYED AWAY FROM LISA,  MAYBE THEN THIS WONT HAPPEN! " suga yelled furiously and that snapped me into reality finally thinking straight

End of flashback

"God...what is wrong with me! Why do i only realise it until now? Why does it take Jimin to leave me fore tp figure that out !! Why!! Why!!" I shouted to no one in particular

"Jungkook ah..." Taehyung called out to me as he knocked from the other side of the door

"Yes hyung ?" I said monotonelously

"Come down to eat,  Jin hyung cooked a lot! " he cheered happily

After Jimin left, bts took 2 months off searching for him, even went to as far as Busan to search for him at his parents, but to no use. Even his parents have no idea where their son went

2 months came by and soon they have to return to practice and attending concerts,  however now, blackpink was the most famous K-Pop group,  following by twice, Stray kids,  then BTS. Even TXT was getting more and more popular as each day pass. Many doubt it would be long before TXT overtake BTS

It was so shocking to everyone to see how lifeless and less cheerful BTS had became after they lost Jimin,  but ARMYs still stuck with them loyally.

"Thanks hyung... But I'm not hungry" Jungkook sighed

"Jungkook ah, please stop saying that!  Hell I don't even know how heavy you are now but look at you!  Bags under your eyes , skin so pale, body so skinny! Hair messy like a bird nest! Is this kind of Idol you are potraying yourself! IS THIS WHAT JIMIN WOULD HAVE WANT YOU TO BECOME?!?!!" Taehyung screamed murderously

"H-hyung...i missed him"

Hearing that familiar name after so long sent a burning sensation to mh heart.

It hurts...

My heart hurts....

"Jungkook , i know you do , but move on! He will come back when he finally realises how much the group needed him ,but for now , lets do all we can to make Jimin proud when he's back...for the sake of Jimin , Jungkook , live up to your status!" Taehyung sighed and engulfed the younger into a comforting hug