grand piano ( billie eilish! )

FOUR

the rest of the week, i stayed in my house. i gave pepper to finneas and bought my own place. it felt good, i wasnt reminded of billie, because her smell wasnt in here, and i was glad. i felt free, but i still didn't have the guts to break it off with billie.

she was supposed to be my soulmate. my everything. how could i possibly move on?

i called my model friends to ask if they wanted to go out partying. of course they said yes.

i put on the most slutty thing i could find, and went out.

i drunk and drunk, doing body shots off of random people, and taking many many drunk pictures. i dont regret it. it made my thoughts go away, and thats exactly what i needed.

my phone ringed, but my friend grabbed it away from me. "you dont need billie bothering you everyday."

she was right. i didnt need billie at all. she didnt need me.