Reddened eyes

Broken

When did it all happen?

When did I start to cry without knowing?

When did I become so empty?

When did all the walls fall?

Why did she have to leave?

It's been a year, 2 months, and 16 days.

14 months, and 16 days.

And despite knowing it will never happen; I still hope.

I hope that sometime you will come back.

I still hope.

Even after all this time I still can't except she's gone.

Because if she is, than I lost her.

And I lost my dad on top of that.

I lost a part of myself.

I lost so much of myself.

When did I start crying so much?

Why didn't I get to say goodbye?

Don't I deserve as much?

I just want to say goodbye to you...

Not like that would give me closer...

Nothing does.

Nothing ever will.

Not words.

Not people.

Not time.

Nothing.

And I wish I could just except that for once.

For once...

Can everything be okay?

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