Soft //Billie Eilish

25

A few days later

Billie's POV

I suddenly woke to the sound cars outside. I don't want to move. To get up. Today's the day I'm supposed to pack up my room. My family are going to help and I roped Lexie into coming. My mom walked in with lots of cardboard boxes. "You won't be able to bring everything so we need to go through your stuff." She Said smiling at me. She is always happy. Smiling. I hate it. It's not like I want her to be sad all the time but it seems like she didn't care about my dad. Isn't she supposed to be sad but instead she walked over to my closet and started pulling out clothes. 

I got up and grabbed one some of the clothes from the floor. Today's really hot so I decided to wear some shorts. Then I went into the bathroom not wanting to change with my mom in the room. I released that I've not been active on instagram so a post a picture of my outfit and return to my mom. All of my family were here now and started talking down my things. "Billie, we will need to paint over the wall. Do you want to do it or can I?" My mom asked. "No. I will." I replied. I looked back at my phone to see the usel comments of fans endless love. They really are funny. I'm so lucky to have such amazing people supporting me.

 We started putting my things in boxes and soon Lexie arrived. "Good morning." I Said kissing her. We walked into my room and started to help pack. Seeing my room so empty gave me a sense of loss. I'm never going to be in here again. I started thinking about all my memories in this room. All the happy things, all the sad things and mostly how much everything's changed. I started sobbing and sobbing. Lexie  grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. She started kissing me and whispering reassurance. She always knows when I need her and is right there. "I love you." I whispered to her. "I love you too." She Said pulling me in for a kiss. After a few seconds we pulled away and returned to are packing. The moving van arrived and my furniture was removed. Now it's properly empty. It's so weird to know that I'm never coming back here. A place I've lived all my life. My mom handed me some paint and paint brushes and everyone left the room. I decided to take some pictures of my wall so I will always remember it. I'm now completely alone. No one will ever know what's on that wall except from me. Maybe one day I'll show someone but I can't do that now. I moved the brush over my writing and everything was completely covered. Soon we were saying goodbye to the little old house. I got quite emotional walking around my home for the last time. Finally it was time to leave. I got in the car with everyone else and we all sat in silence for a bit until Finneas broke it. "Claudia posted the vlog from Australia." He said showing it to us. I decided to read some of the comments. It's nice to see how everyone finds her and Finneas cute. I hope the fans think that way when I tell them about me and Lexie.

Fuck. No. It's everywhere. How didn't she see this. Now everyone knows. In the background of Claudia and Finneas laughing about something you can see us. Me and Lexie on that couch. Her on top of me. Us kissing.