Serendipity

Wallflower

This week was just taxing. I might take my dad up on that homeschooling offer. I'm  not a brat, I just don't  like the school environment here, I guess it has a lot to do with me not wanting to make friends, with the enormous amount of hormonal teenage boys,  and just the feeling of sadness every time  I realise I have to start again . I hate it , I do.

I'm so scared of confronting my parents,  they've wanted me to have a normal schooling environment  , to add a sense of normalcy into my daily life , theres nothing normal about me , I go to school , yeah , because I have to, if they allow me the opportunity of homeschooling,  that in itself would eliminate  so much of stress off of me . I mean , I would instantly be more relaxed, and I'd  be able to divide my attention between work and school evenly.

Ugh it's  too much. 

Thankfully its Friday, so that means Tyler and I  are going shopping. I'm actually really excited,  shopping with him is so fun, it's  always been,  he chooses a bunch of horrific looking outfits, I try them  on to humor him and in the end we end up buying everything I chose .

Its tradition, really.

I got home , had something to eat , changed into something more presentable, grabbed a set of car keys , I don't  know which car this is , but hey , I'm not picky.

It was the Mustang.

So unnecessarily fancy.

We got to the mall , Tyler and I were alone  , I guess he's  doubling as chauffeur and bodyguard today, not that I'm complaining,  he was fine.

What? I can appreciate a good-looking   Male specimen every now and then.

We walked around the mall , sharing random chit-chat   , he brought up the topic of school,  which definitely put a damper on things , I guess he noticed my change of mood , so he bought  me ice-cream  and all was well again in the world.

We shopped , and shopped, and shopped .

We stopped in front of Victorias Secret and  I went in , alone , obviously, that's just too weird.

I ended up buying a whole lot of lingerie,  for no sexual reason at all , it was just so pretty , don't  judge.  I got a bunch of perfumes  and was on my way out , when I noticed  this shady looking guy following me , he showed up at every store I walked into.

Coincidence? I think not.

I walked a little faster , practically ran into Tyler's arms , I whispered in his ear that we were being followed  , he took the bags from my arms, and placed his arm around my waist  , trying not to draw attention towards us as we practically  speed-walked out of the mall.

As soon as we got into the car , Tyler called Hunter to let him know  what was going on.
I know I should probably be more weary of whatever had just conspired , however , I truly felt unbothered by this entire situation,  I was unnervingly calm, which is so weird. I guess I've  dealt  with worse.

Although,  my twisted mind  convinced me to use this in presenting my case to my parents when I bring up the homeschooling thing. It's  beyond wrong  of me , I know  , but I  just can't  deal with another day going to that dreaded school.

We got home , and to my surprise   Dad had the entire security team , and some added extras  in the living  room , I popped by to say hi, I had to be polite , considering these people would be responsible  for my family  and I's safety.

I received  a mixture of "Miss Knight" "Good day" "Hi" and of course the curt nod that I simply relish.

Yes, I'm  just a ray of sunshine.

I headed up to my bedroom and unpacked everything into their designated places.  I settled on a gorgeous  champagne gown , for the Gala tomorrow night. It had lace detailing  and a detachable train. It was so extra, I loved it. It's  pretty  fitting for these Gala things we're always dragged to. I guess Mom likes it, I don't particularly fancy the whole  dress up  and proper poise and manners , also I never have anyone to talk to , who am I kidding though? Even if I did have people my age that I could engage in conversation with, I'm  so anti-social I'd  probably  just run away and try to blend in with the wallpaper.

It was around 18h30  , mom had announced that dinner was ready , we were joined by Dad's  head of security , and some other people , I smiled their way and took my seat.  Why am I always hungry?

Mom,  Dad, and all the other people talked and laughed, I  happily chomped on my food, I mean if my mouth is full I can't  talk which means I won't have to talk to anyone , Tyler's  Dad was actually my Dad's  head of security , I didn't know that.

Tyler caught  my gaze and smiled at me , I smirked at him , when I was done,  I excused myself and headed to our library  , my favorite place in this entire house.
I spent  the rest of the evening reading my favorite books , I realised my phone was upstairs  so I took the book I was reading with me and headed out of the library,  I was on my way to my room when I heard Dad call me into his office. This was so weird  , he only calls me to the office when its business related.

I knocked once , I heard him mutter a response.

"You called." I stated, he simply nodded and asked me to take a seat.

This is so weird, he's  so formal.

"You know Sweetheart,  today was just a warning , there are many ways today could have ended , you handled yourself well  , however, I've  been thinking of sending you for self defense classes."

I nodded  as I took in what he just said  , it's a great idea, I understand why he would want me to take up self defense.
"Of course , I would love to go , I think I would feel safer as well , all things considered,  I'm kind of a walking target" I joked , trying to lighten up the mood , yet failing miserably.

I guess this is my chance.

"Dad , I've been meaning to talk to you , look this whole "going to school and having a normal life" it's  not working , I hate it , it's  so stressful,  it's  too much for me , I can't  do the school thing and the work thing , I want to be homeschooled  , it would help balance everything out , please just take this into consideration,  I'm begging you. " I pleaded, I didn't realise how much it effected me until I said everything out loud.

"Done" he said with a smile.

Wait what? No resistance,  no "it's  for your best interests " none of that?.

Well okay then.

"Really  dad? Just like that?" I asked, taken back by his immediate response .

"Sweetheart,  your well-being means everything to me, I need you to always be at your best , if you feel homeschooling will help with that, then  I support you completely,  you've  never done anything to make me question your motives,  you may be only 17, yet your maturity has left me stunned on many occasions,  I trust you"

I may have teared up a little , after our little heart-to-heart,  I went up to my bedroom.

Dear diary.
Today was insane , Tyler and I went shopping for the Gala tomorrow  , everything was going well until I caught on to some random dude following me, Tyler and I got home safely though. Dad had an entire betallion arranged   , I get it though. I spoke to Dad about the homeschooling  thing and he actually agreed , he even suggested self defense classes. I'm so for it. I mean I don't  want to be dependent  on a security team to constantly  babysit me.  I'm so happy that I no longer have to deal with the whole going to school  thing. Today was crazy , tomorrow will be crazier, that's a given.

Yours Truly
Renesmeè

With that said , I shut my diary , turned off the lights , and got some shut eye. Tomorrow will definitely be crazier.