My heart wants to write
But my mind can't find the words
And my body doesn't wish to move
Even now I have to force my hand
To move along this paper or press these keys
My heart aches and I want to cry
The funny thing is I don't even know why
I feel so exhausted, I just want to sleep forever
I'm so tired, so I sleep my life away
But I'm still tired when I wake up
I don't want to get up
I have no energy for anything
I don't want to do anything
But even doing nothing bothers me so much
Because doing nothing is not enough
So I try to sleep because at least then
I'll get some peace
But sleep is temporary
And I have a life I'm supposed to live (for others)
So the thought of my escape, my death
Comes creeping into mind
But I try to shove it away
Just ignore it, just forget it
But everything hurts so much
And my brain won't stop for even a moment
I just
Want
It All To
Stop.
