The Twisted Artsy Trilogy

✌ op squad forever 🤘

Well uh, forgot to post here for over a week-

Oops?

Camp ended over a week ago and emotions have been torturing me like always.

Idk, camp this year was just,,great? I had such a great friend group and it was not toxic at all, and it was just a breath of fresh air compared to what I went through before??

It felt nice that I was able to talk to people, knowing that they won't judge. It was nice knowing that they won't gossip behind your back. It was nice to have geniune real life friends for once.

I actually cried when I got back from camp graduation.

I started,,thinking. I had an existential crisis. I just thought and I thought.

I didn't want to grow up so fast.

I won't see my camp friends anymore after winter reunion passes by. I won't see most of my school friends anymore. My leaders, my teachers,,,I won't see them anymore.

And it's not like I can just magically see them anytime I can. I just can't. It's not that easy.

Graduation was crazy, and going through it again just opened my eyes a bit further? Idk, dude.

I'm just scared of going to highschool. High expectations will be placed on me due to the type of school I'm going to, and I don't think I'm enough. What if the kids aren't so nice as they seem? What if people start judging me? Just what if...

I just don't want to be the scared little girl I used to be. I don't want to be shy and I'm far from that now ever since 8th grade and camp passed by. I want to achieve great things, but, I'm still insecure. Very insecure.

I really don't know, my dudes. Sorry for the long hecking rant.

But uh, art?

Recreation of a selfie with the op squad  (yes that is our name, I think I made it up or my other friend, we also go by the loser sqaud as well) from the last day.

I like how I actually drew myself genuinely happy? Like I'm holding back a laugh somehow. Just like the original which looks cringey haha.

Random experimental art.