Care (Godric)

Pity Party

Godric P.O.V
Really?

They brought HUMANS!?

Wait.

Why am I so mad about this?

I mean I am an activist for this type of shit but still.

What angers me isn't that Eric and Pam obviously glamoured them....

It's they were there when we were celebrating Kook?

Why do I care so much? I realize our unfortunate bond but in all seriousness.....

What is driving this?

This feeling....

These emotions that go farther than how I've ever seen Eric.

Father.

Brother.

Child.

What were these words to me now?

They don't...... can't describe the way I see Kook after these many years.

Like it would be a crime to do so.

These 3 words I've always thought of when I look at my progenies.

Sex would just be something that happened often in elder days.... But that's how I always saw them as, family.

Nothing more, nothing less.

But I want Kook so badly in so many ways that shouldn't be real. Yet they are and I can't help it.

What am I going to do?

I sit on the dock I was watching Kook from earlier.

I sit trying to figure out things I thought were wonderments of childish youth.

Unfortunately I'm not so lucky.

It's tough being an old man in the body of a teen.

I absolutely hate it.

My body doesn't fit my fucking age.

Looking at me you might think of me as an innocent boy. Not as a man whom has struggled so much, caused so much pain.

Would death be better than this? This false promise of life?

Even if I did die everything would be fine right?

Kook is old enough, they wouldn't need me if I was gone.

I've done so many bad things as a vampire.

The fellowship of the sun is looking for a vampire to crucify.

Looks like they won't need to look very hard.

I'm going to go tomorrow. Just around the time before Kook would wake up.

For now I need to celebrate the child whose life was flipped upside down because of their maker.

Huh.

I guess that's something we both have in common.

We both got screwed over from things out of our control.

Heck, that's another struggle.

Would it have been possible to just refuse? Was the situation more in my control than I previously thought? Could I have stopped all of this?

Was Eric better off dying from blood loss so long ago? Was Nora better off dying from plague? Was Kook better off just..... dying the way god had intended? Whatever way that would have been?

I was still deep in my thought when I was slapped over my head.

"Hey, you coming over with us? You've been here so long I almost thought you were dead." Kook joked.

If only they all knew....

Kook grabbed my hand and tried to pull me off my ass.

I chuckle as they try and fail. In the end just sitting next to me.

Kook rests their head on my shoulder and holds my hand.

A lot of things hurt right now, but Kook seems to make it better when ever I'm around them.

Kook keeps their head on my shoulder and says:

"Please don't start acting like a girl complaining about her shoe size."

Like that girl in the movie Kook showed me on Netflix?

Kook was joking before, but was now dead Sirius.

"Try to give yourself to those Bible thumpers I will whoop your ass so hard it'll be opposite on whose maker and whose the progeny." They said, now sitting up straight.

Kook then looked at me straight in the eyes.

"Just because you don't care about yourself, doesn't mean others have stopped caring about you."