A broken story

Let me tell you about "XO"

What a day... this summer i learned how to drive. Scary right ? Another maniac on the roads if you would say so... Well actually not really, my driving is ok i would say very good yet because i'm driving my dad's car and i sometimes can't start right away but hey i'm still learning.(And i have 9 months to try a bit more before i'm allowed to do my practical exam) ->* this is not made up , this is true*

Is this boring ?
I'm boring you aren't i ?
I don't know i can't sleep again.
Maybee i'll tell you a story. Would you like that?
I'll tell you a typical story called *drum roll*
-> MY LOVE LIFE
whoo so fun ! Sike

So i already told you about the "HE'S" in my life. Well let's name them. Let's call the good one 'xo' and the bad one 'x'.
You like those names ?

So Xo is a guy i met thanks to my best friend. I saw him walking by before i met him and thought omg i need to meet this guy. Next thing you know he walks directly towards our table and starts talking to my best friend. (We were at a bar) I'm like dafuck?! Who's this ?

Long story short they are child hood friends who not so long ago reconnected.

Skip forward to now, i'm a puddle of confussion.
I'll tell you more about him when i'v told you about x.
He knows what's happend with

x but he teases me and he bullies me with it... it's not okay and it makes me sad to be honest. Because my mind says no! Fuck this bastard. But then the rest of me say o lord he's fine as fuck.

So yeah... the best solution i have right now is to just ignore the feeling till i get black out dronk and " by accident" send a lame 'hey, what are you doing?' text to him.

That probably will be a worst decision but hey fuck it ya know ?

Well these were tonights thoughts, i'm gonna try sleeping again.

Goodnight x