Unwanted

Thirty

WAKAS

When you're contented with your life.. you won't ask for anything may makita ka man na mas maganda sa bagay na meron ka ngayon hindi ka makakaramdam ng selos.. you will find yourself admiring that thing but it will never cross your mind to have that for yourself because you are happy of what you have.

Having Kazimir beside me is like that.

His more than enough to fill the darkness inside me, he touch my deepest inner self and made friend with her without even knowing it, he made me feel the way I should felt.

I experience losing someone I love the most in the world, feeling lost and unwanted, a bastard, someone who's not worth fighting for and when he arrived in my life he didn't try to make me forget those thing.

He teach me to face it.

I have trust issue, I have flaws and that made him love me.

"Hmm"

I tried to push him away from me but he just pinned my hands above my head and he attack my lips with hungry kisses.. he can't seems to get enough of me.

I kiss him back then move my head away from his lips. Wala siyang matatapos na trabaho nito.

He chuckle

"Kaz.. may trabaho ka!"

Gosh, how can he be the CEO when all he want to do is make out with me in this room, nag infinite leave ako para paghandaan ang kasal namin, two days ago ginanap ang engagement I can't really remember that night all I know is Kaz being so clingy.

Just like now..

"I'm working" He whisper hoarsely

"Go out now or uuwi ako" I warn.

 Effective dahil umalis siya sa ibabaw ko at humiga sa tabi, he want me with him all the time ang rason niya para mapadali ang pag pa-plano sa kasal samantalang wala naman kaming ginawa kundi umuo kina Tita Aliya at Mama Kath..

Yeah after the engagement tita Kath force me to call her Mama in front of all people na nasa engagement.. and maraming maraming tao.

"After our wedding I want you all day inside our bedroom" I blush.

Hindi ako umimik pinagmasdan ko sya ng inayos niya ang kanyang damit at lumabas without looking back at me. 

Tumitig ako sa ceiling, I can't believe all this happen to me in a span of short period..

If I remember it right, nung umalis si Kaz all I think is to graduate with a title or honorable mention pero nung umakyat na ako sa stage at tinanggap ang diploma ko..

 I don't feel anything.. ang nasa isip ko kung paano makakahanap ng trabaho, kung paano magsimulang mag-isa.. 

and even that thought never bring joy in me but here I am now just a simple gesture of Kaz can lit my eyes and I can have my own struggle to hide it and sometimes I just can't..

Just like now, seeing him force himself to get away from me can make this foolish grin plastered on my face.

Everything is smooth for me, not for the other people though, Ash act as if I never exist which is normal by now but she never show up on my engagement, she never say a word to me after that phone call, Aric said he talked with Ash and tried to make her understand things I just hope he do it more harder since obviously walang epekto. 

The Dime Food had issue after the engagement na realize nila na nahulog sila sa kamay ng isang Montecello.

Sinong hindi? 

Ako nga nandito sa sitwasyong ito dahil rin sa nahulog ako, ang kaibahan lang hinulog ako para lang masalo. 

Kaz knew how to play a game.

It's noon when I decided to go out since lunch time kaya sigurado akong wala na siyang ka meeting.. 

or that's what I thought tumaas agad ang kilay ko ng makita kung sino ang naka-upo sa harap ng lamesa ni Kaz.

Melody Dawn Blanca.

When she saw me, nawala ang matamis niyang ngiti kay Kaz, I should be thankful for Ashley kasi binalaan niya ako sa ganitong sitwasyon.. pero hindi ako nagdududa na mangyayari yun, knowing kaz.. 

His smirking when he saw me.. 

he wanted to see me throw a fit from jealousy.

"You're here"

I said with a fake surprise on my voice, I'm actually bare foot and wearing only a simple shirt and jeans but the way Kaz is looking at me I feel like I'm wearing something indecent the way he scan my every curve..

"Kelsea.. you look great"

Tumayo siya at sinalubong ako, we hug as if we're so close when she's not looking sinulyapan ko si Kaz, tinaasan niya ako ng kilay as if daring me to do something about his Ex-fling.

"Thank you.. you look beautiful Dawn"

Naglakad ako palapit kay Kaz tumayo sa gilid niya because I know he can't just let me stand beside him without him touching me.

Dawn smile almost faltered when Kaz arm snake around my waist and kisses my side and my hand flew to his shoulder.

"So.. may usapan ba kayong dalawa?"

I ask in a very pleasant voice. 

Dawn face lit up and she almost beam with delight.

"I'm actually auditioning for the new endorser of Moons Foods.. I just hope I can get some insight of their ideal endorser, I'm asking Kaz for some advice"

Pinigilan kong tumaas ang kilay.

"Dawn... I can't really give you advice, hindi ko pa nakikita ang presentation ng marketing" 

Kaz said His slowly tracing circle on my belly and I want to sit on his lap this instant because of that.

"Oh.." She seems genuinely disappointed.

"I think you don't need advice Dawn, your pretty and talented of course malaki ang chance mong makuha" I offer

Kaz arm tighten.

"Thanks Kelsea.. anyway.. maybe I can invite you two for lunch" I'm about to answer..

"Actually we have other plans.. maybe next time Dawn"

Alanganing tumango ito, nung wala na siyang ibang pweding sabihin ay nagpaalam na siya, as soon as the door shut close behind her nawala agad ang ngiti ko.

"Make sure na hindi siya makukuha or else walang kasalang magaganap"

Tumawa si Kaz at hinila ako paupo sa kanyang kandungan, pumayag ako dahil may gusto akong gawin at kailangan pumayag siya.

"Actually.. sa susunod na buwan pa ang audition ng new endorser.. she's just here to invite me for a lunch"

Namilog ang mga mata ko. 

What?

Kaz smile knowingly at bago pa tumama ang kamay ko sa dibdib niya ay nahawakan na niya ito. He knew na sasaktan ko siya that's why hinila niya ako sa ganitong posisyon!

Nagsinungaling ang babaeng yun sa akin!

Hindi ako makapaniwalang may mga babae palang edukada pero malaswa ang ugali and Kaz just smile while she's lying on my face!

"Easy Kels.. I just want to see how you handle her.. and you did well"

"Kung sinabi mo na ganun ang sadya ng babae mo, maybe hindi lang yun ang nakita mo" Kaz kiss my shoulder while laughing at me.

"Don't worry Kels, I don't see other girls anymore.. you're more than enough for this life time and the next life time"

The End