𝑰 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼, ˡᵉᵉ ʲᵉⁿᵒ

i'm not going

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[Jeno]

I lie down on my bed, can't bothering to move.

I didn't know y/n would affect me so much like this.

What if she never wakes up?

What if she dies because of me?

It's not impossible...

But if she does die...

It's my fault... I will become a murderer....

"Jeno, it's time to go to school.." I heard my sister knock on the door.

But I couldn't open it.

I'm not even sure if I can walk to get the door.

I just heard the door open.

"Jeno, get up..." She said, walking towards me.

"No..." I said, covering myself up.

"Why? Mom will get mad."

"I don't want to... not after yesterday.." I said and she sighed.

"What happened yesterday then?" She asked and I could feel tears forming.

"Y/n... has been hospitalized." I said and she gasped.

"What? Why?"

"It was my fault.."

"How is it your fault?"

"I broke up with her and she suddenly had a stroke. I didn't even know she was sick..."

Tears was falling, soft sobs was audible.

My sister removed the blanket and make me sit up.

She then hug me, patting my back for comfort.

I let my tears fall on her shoulder and my sobs has become louder.

"Jeno..." She says my name softly.

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[Jisung]

I entered the hospital, my hands already shaking.

I walked towards the elevator and wait for the door to open.

Once it opened, I went inside, pressing the floor button.

My heart was beating fast.

My head was getting blurry.

My eyes are getting teary.

My body is shaking.

The door opened and I felt my heart stop beating for a second.

I walk to her room and saw her frail body on the other side of this glass window.

I reach out my hands, touching the glass window as I felt my jaw start to shake.

Tears was ready to fall any second.