𝑰 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼, ˡᵉᵉ ʲᵉⁿᵒ

tell us

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[Y/n]

I was looking away from them.

From Renjun.

From Jisung.

"You lied?" Jisung said, softly.

"You lied to us?"

"Did you know what we have been through, y/n?"

"How much it actually hurt me when you said you don't know us?"

"Do you know how much I lo-"

"I know that I hurt you!" I shouted, cutting him off.

"It hurt me as well!"

"That day, Taeyong saw me in the hospital."

"Instead of passing away, I was saved."

"Taeyong told me on that exact same that he will treat me in America!"

"I wanted to get better, so I accepted!"

"I accepted even though we have to leave that exact same day!"

"Even though I just woke up, if I stayed, you guys will visit again!"

"I was going crazy."

"No... I am crazy."

"All I wanted was to live a normal life, yet I..." I started to cry.

"Yet I have this illness which is torturing me!"

"I have to be careful and not get a stroke!"

"I try not to cry and stay strong just for you!"

"For Jaemin!"

"For Jeno!"

"But what did I get?"

"What did I receive from that one hella of a stroke?"

"Did I gain anything? Did I lose anything?"

"Am I going to die? Am I going to live? Am I going to stay here forever?"

"Tell me!"

"Tell me what will I gain!"

"Tell me what I will lose!"

"Tell me, Park Jisung, Huang Renjun!!" I shouted.

I was shaking.

Tears were falling.

I was choking on my own tears.

"I was scared."