Ashiah Symone Bryier
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"So you mean to tell me you carrying somebody baby?" my daddy said looking at me in disbelief
"I'm carrying my baby" I said and he shook his head
"No you carrying that nigga baby, you know it takes two to make a baby"
Duh
"you done?" I asked not wanting hear nothing. They stressing me out and I can't take it
Everybody got something to say and everybody judging me
"And you was pregnant that day you came to my house and you ain't tell me. I should knock the living light outta you"
"this why I ain't wanna tell you cause you doing to much. Can I go?"
"Did I say you can go?" I ain't say nothing and he got up coming closer to me "huh?"
"No, and can you back up?"
"No"
"It's nothing I can do bout it now cause I'm already pregnant. Y'all really doing the most fa' no reason" his eyes widen
"have I ever hit you or whooped you?" I shook my head no and he started nodding with a smile "well that's what the fuck I wanna do"
this what you call bipolar
"well you can't, you want me to have an abortion?" I asked waiting on his answer
I'm not gone have no abortion, but they acting like they want me to
"did I say that?" he asked sitting down on the couch
"no but you acting like it"
"Oh"
"bye cause everybody pissing me off and I'm not finna deal with y'all" I got up and grabbed my stuff and left out getting into my car
as soon as I got in I broke down into tears. What the fuck did I do?
It's my fault, and I hate me for that
My own family talking down on me cause I'm pregnant. I'm not gone have no abortion cause I want my child
Even if I didn't want my baby Kentrell wasn't gone let that happen
"I wanna die" I said cranking up the car and backing up fast "Ima crash this fucking car and when I die I won't have to worry shit "
I sat there looking at a tree as I put the car in drive and grabbed onto the wheel. As soon as I was bout to push the gas my phone started ringing
"WHAT THE FUCK" I yelled picking up my phone to see it was my cousin. I wiped my tears before throwing my phone down
My cheeks started hurting as I drove out the neighborhood. I picked up my phone to look at Kentrell location
he was at a restaurant
I started driving to the restaurant as tears continued to fall from my eyes nonstop. I regret everything that I did and I'm putting everything down
My life ain't in my hands no more, so I ask god to take the wheel. I don't want shit and I rebuke everything in the name of Jesus
I take that back
My emotions just running and I don't know how to feel. fuck it
I pulled up to the restaurant and before calling Kentrell
"I'm outside" I said with a shaky voice, I had my face avoiding the camera
"why you sound like that, whats wrong?"
I didn't say nothing, I couldn't say nothing. I was stuck, lost, and confused
The phone hung up and a minute later I saw him running out the restaurant
He opened the door and looked at me
"what you crying for?" he asked squatting down and putting his hand on my thigh
"bae everybody got something to say and they judging me. They judging me cause I'm pregnant"
"fuck them, you ain't gotta worry bout them I gotchu"
"my own momma and daddy judging me. Everybody else in my family is too"
"Fuck them, you don't need them fa' shit. Stop crying cause you gone be alright. They opinions don't fucking matter" he said
"But— " he cut me off
"ain't no buts, you straight and the baby gone be straight. You and the baby gone be straight with or without everybody else"
"I been dealing with this shit for weeks, and I been holding up strong. I can't do it no more, you know my daddy threatened me?"
"Ashiah look, you good and you know this shit already. What they gotta say ain't helping you or the baby. You ain't gotta deal with they asses"
"okay" I simply said as he wiped away my tears
"Don't go back home stay with me. I promise you I gotchu and I ain't gone fold on you. You good?"
I nodded and he smiled showing his grill which caused me to smile
"gimme a kiss" I leaned down and kissed him "I love you bae, for real"
"I love you too, Kentrell"
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