A Search to my GF (Black Butterfly fan fiction) *HIATUS*

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BELLA POV:

It's been 2 weeks since the last time Alex went in our house.  And up until now,  it's still a mystery to me kung bakit umalis si Jarvis.  Alam na rin ni Princess ang tungkol dun and even her, don't know the reason behind the sudden decision of her brother.

The three of us are having a coffee and I've decided na iwan ko muna yung kambal kay Manang.  I need to unwind myself too. Though,  I'm having a good time taking care of my children,  I still need to relax myself and para naman maka-bonding ko tong' dalawang bisita ko.  Who flew away from the Philippines without the permission of others just to see me.

"So,  guys when do you plan to get home? " I asked them

"Why,  Bella do you want us to go home na?. " Princess,  who stop drinking her coffee to answer me.

"Hindi naman.  Baka lang kasi hinahanap na kayo especially you Ress. " I said while looking at Ress.

"Let them look for me Bella.  I don't care kung magalit sila,  as long as I already saw you and your children. Hindi rin naman ako matitiis ng mga yun" Ress

"Well for me,  my GF's are already used to it.  I'm like a mushroom to them na bigla na lang mawawala at lilitaw na lang.  But of course there's still a non-stop interrogation first. " Princess

I just nod to them since they have a point.  For Ress gawain niya na talaga ang paghanapin sila Ryuuji.  Kung saan saan kasi siya pumupunta at madalas walang paalam kung aalis.  And for Princess well ganon na talaga siya.

I'm thankful,  because hindi pa nila ako natutunton dito well except for Alex and Xander and of course Lara.  I just dont know why it take them so much time to find me.  If Alex and Xander easily found me,  why can't others do that too?.  It's not like I want to be found,  I'm just curious.

I'm thinking on,  when this life of mine will end?.  I'm tired of hiding but whenever I imagine myself being free.  I always end up in worrying about  those people that surrounds me.  It's like their safety is depend on me.  I want my children to grow up normally,  to see the beauty of this world not this kind of life that I'm having now.

Alam ko naman na ako lang ang makakasagot ng mga sarili kong tanong.  I'am the only one who can end this life I'm having now.  I put myself to this kind of situation and it's already my fate that is very inevitable.  We don't know what's God's plans for us and I think this is His plans for me.  But for me to be able to conquer it,  I must face it.  I'm the only one who can change the life I'm living.  Kung kailangan kong magsakripisyo para matamo lang ang kalayaang gusto kong maabot lalong lalo na sa mga anak ko,  handa akong isakripsyo ang lahat para lang sa kanila kahit na buhay ko pa ang kapalit.  At least bago ako mawala sa mundong ito ay may nagawa man lang akong tama hindi lang para sa sarili ko kundi para na rin sa mga taong nakapaligid at naniniwala sa akin.  In the first place,  lumalaban lang naman ako para sa kapakanan nila.

"Hey Bella,  you're in a deep thought. " Ress,  na nagbalik sa akin sa realidad

"Sorry,  I just can't help it. " sabi ko na may ngising alanganin

"Don't overthink Bella.  Ang mahalaga ay yung ngayon na kasama mo ang mga pamangkin ko. " Princess,  then she flashed a smile to me so I did the same.

"She's right Bella.  Just be happy kahit ngayon lang.  Don't mind muna sa mga naiwan mo sa Pilipinas just think about your children,  okay?. " Ress

I just nodded to Ress.  She's right,  I must keep my focus to my twins because they're my priorities now and they need me to have a good life here and they need my love.

After that conversation, we just continued to drink our coffee. Ress and Princess are using they're phones. They need a new gadget here. Though, they have the gadgets, they're using a deffierent account. They deactivate the account they're using sa Pilipinas kaya ayun nakakagamit din sila ng mga Apps here.