W41K3R5 J01N || walkers join

Chapter Nine

My eyes hollow, I slowly made my way through the chaos, muttering calming words or helping with smaller wounds. It felt like hours until I made my way to the big metal doors, separating the corridor from the actual hospital.

It was like the whole picture shifted.

In my back, the unorganized mess, people groaning in pain and waiting to be treated.

In my front, the hectic, yet structured chaos of a hospital, tall grown people in white coats running from one room to the other, followers by several nurses. The clinic white was too bright for my eyes, I slowly turned around almost bumping into a Walker being carried inside.

A loud scream that was surely not addressed towards me alerted me, adrenaline rushing through my veins almost immediately.

"Healer!" A male voice screamed in fear and I started running towards where I guessed it came from, seeing a unconscious man on the floor, not breathing. The man who had screamed was kneeling besides him, trying to get his friend up.

I recalled my first aid training from my not yet finished driver license, sliding the last metre on my knees and immediately turning him on his back, checking his pulse.

His heart was beating, slow and weak, but still he was alive. Without any further thought I inhaled, starting to breathe him manually. The man's chest started rising and falling in the same rhythm as mine and I stopped after he given amount, checking his pulse.

My heart dropped as I was frantically trying to find any heart beat, but there was nothing. Trying to keep my calm, I folded my hands, starting the heart massage.

"Come on buddy..." I hissed between gritted teeth, trying my hardest to get his heart to beat again. "Come on..." Stopping for a second to check his pulse I continued again as there was still nothing beating underneath his skin.

"Alex?" The man next to me asked with a thin voice. "Come on buddy you can't be dying now..." He pushed a strain of hair out of his friends face, checking for any reaction before his fearful eyes met mine.

I started one last attempt to make the man live again, putting all my will into it, my heart sinking when I realized I've been too late. The realization hit us both hard, the man freezing before starting to shake uncontrollable.

"I... I am so sorry..." I whispered, stumbling back to give him some space. Alex was lying peacefully on the floor, looking like he was sleeping. He had no visible wounds, my WV would have told me.

I've fought on the front, I've seen soldiers dying, I've seen Walkers dying, but I've never been so close to someone I could have saved but instead died.

Alex' friend was laying over his dead friends chest, still shaking and crying, muttering words I wasn't able to hear.

A choking sound left my throat when I turned around on my heels, fleeing from the situation blindly. Fynn was screaming something at me when I blindly fought my way away from the hospital, to an unknown destination. His words just bounced off my raging thoughts, I could have saved him.

I could have saved him.

But I didn't. He died under my very own hands.

It's my fault he died.

I could have saved him.

The door flung open when I smashed nearly head first into it and I stumbled into the empty cafeteria.

Christine I swear to god if you start drinking now I..

I interrupted him harshly, my mind blank while the guilty thought was bouncing back and forth.