In The Midst Of Happiness

CHAPTER 21: Excruciating Truth

Harry's POV

I certainly don't know what to feel when I heard the news. They are coming home. If my mind was in a normal state right now I should be happy. But it's not, there are many "what ifs" inside my head.

"Sana tayo ang manalo sa booth, Kuya."

I took a glance of him before answering.

"What's the catch?" I lazily said.

"Anong what's the catch? Hello! bibigyan lang naman tayo ng 2 days na vacation sa isang exclusive na beach resort. Tsaka free pass 'yon Kuya, free pass. Ibig sabihin—

"Walang bayad. I get it. So, that means if we won lahat ng accounting students under our team kasama?"

"Syempre naman! gusto mo ikaw lang? Selfish mo din minsan Kuya ah" I glared at him. "Palibhasa hindi ka kasi nakikinig. Sabi ni Pres, Saturday and Sunday daw para walang excuse na maka-absent."

Nagkibit balikat na lamang ako. Oh well, if that's what they really want then. Be it.

"Hindi ka ba nae-excite Kuya? Uuwi na sina Mom!"

Tumayo siya at may kinuha sa loob ng refrigerator.

"Ilang bases mo nang sinabi 'yan. Can you get over with it?"

Natawa siya pero umiling din. "Right. Hindi mo nga sila masyadong kinakausap noong nakakasama pa natin sila"

It's true. I still feel distant to them. I don't know why. I just always did. Hindi ko naman sinasadya o ano, hindi ko lang mapigilan.

"Matagal na naman iyon Kuya. Grabe ka namang magtampo" He sounded like he's teasing me but it is. It's been a year for goodness sake. I know. "Kawawa naman sina mom at dad. Patawarin mo na kasi. Ikaw din, wala kang pasalubong" paalala niya.

How can I forgive them so easily? I can't even find a right words to say when I'm with them. With their family. Two years, two years ago. I still haven't fully recovered about what they said. My mind was filled with complicated thoughts, so is my family. Back when I was still young but not innocent. I had a lots of insecurities within me. I had one for Warren, my cousins, and my classmates. Well, in every person I meet. I never feel loved before. I always feel like I'm not part of any of the things in this world. That I don't  deserved to be happy. I don't know why but, that was before I comprehend everything.

I just found out na hindi ko tunay na pamilya sina Mom at Dad. Noong nasa States kaming tatlo para matignan ang kalagayan ko. I accidentally overhead them talking. In Lolo's office. Nakaawang nang bahagya ang pinto. I was excited to show him my medical results. Nasa labas pa si Dad. Kasalukuyang pinapasok ang kotse sa parking lot. We went to the hospital para kunin ang result ng tests ko.

Masaya ako dahil sa wakas ay makakauwi na ako sa Pilipinas. I'm all cured. Pero hindi ko inaasahan ang maririnig ko.

"Pero Papa! kung ibabalik namin siya sa Pilipinas  baka tuluyan na siyang mawala sa amin. I can't risk anything Papa. Hindi ko kayang mawalan na naman ng isang minamahal sa buhay dahil sa lalaking iyon!"

"And that boy you're talking is your brother! Do I have to remind you that? Besides, May sariling si Harry. Pinayagan kita sa hiling mo noon dahil alam kong labis kang nasaktan. But this case, it's different. If your brother wants his son back we can't do anything about it. He has the right!"