Mateless

The Ugly Duckling Story

The story started when my over faithful Mom and Dad decided to make me a keen follower of the female-to-be-alpha.

Let's cut it short. My parent DECIDED to let me kiss up the asses of the higher ups especially of the the woman alleged to be the Luna.

Do I agree or disgree? Apparently, I had no choice.

We're in the middle of US California with the second largest pack ever with a populance of 300. And with parents who had been betas for generations, it wasn't a big d#mn deal at all.

Only, the alleged Luna-to-be is only a Luna-to-be because she happens to be the sexiest, the bustiest, and gorgeous female wolf in the pack. That within 3 miles radius, with her skimpy clothing and a slight twist of her hips, she can make any male-wolf ho#ny. Except the mated ones. But with the remaining population of the rest, it includes our future Alpha.

Not that I mind since at that time, I was the kindest, gentlest, and timid she-wolf ever. But if ever I had the decision, I wouldn't serve a literal b#tch that lived to its name.

So we're done with introductions.

Now, for the setting.

Ever since we're little, I had that itch, sparkles and tingles everytime little alpha and me, gets close. Just as they say, every contact counts and h3ll. He knew as I knew what we felt. That's why we were close.

That's why when the night of confirmation was about to come, the night for him to choose a partner, I was hopeful that he'll pick me. Because deep down I know, my wolf knows and even if it pisses us off that another Luna-wannabe is taking all his attention from us, and is making assumptions about her status, we knew somehow he'll pick us and confirm it to everyone. Because we're his mate.

Jaxon Black, the future alpha of the Black Moon pack, my former playmate, crush and bestfriend is my mate. There is no debate.

This is my confidence speaking. Not my blind-eyed beliefs. Though sometimes I couldn't help but wish he'll take our sparks seriously as his good looks, wealth and power attracts a lot of bees and it's kinda hurting me-my pride, and my sacrifices to be perfect for him. I believed that like how he would care for me when we were younger, it'll be like that once again when he finally realized we're really confirmed mates. Although our mate is a little unfocused right now, we knew he was made for us. He just need to see that.

An initiation party was made every month of full moon so that females and males of age can find their mates with the confirmation of the moon. They would have to confirm their mates and marks them until so the next evening the Moon Goddess can seal them by the full moon. This was another form of acknowledgement from the pack the these mates are 'married' and cannot be separated by any wolf.

Hence followed by declaration of their subjective positions in the pack. While others are born with it, proper adjustments are done in order to accommodate their mates. And their transfers to their subjective cabins.

Like this, this initiation was held in hopes to find mates for the 59 of age wolves including alpha and me. While their parents held their own grown-up party outside waiting for confirmations.

So when the party came, I, with wrecked nerves decided to confirm it once and for all.

I thought it'll be like fairytale. That he'll find me. His real mate and realize I am the one for him. That it's actually me he wanted and not her.

Standing above the stairs as the party crash on, the clock hit midnight and I knew that the time came where I can finally sniff who's for me and what. My parents are proud of me and my brother, the future beta had his arm slung on my shoulder.

"Go for it, sis." He said

Taking a big sigh, I stilled my nerves as I look around hopefully. But at that time, no one stood out. As my hopes slowly diminish, I seem to notice that Jax (my bestfriend and future alpha) is missing. So I looked around and didn't find him.

I was driven again by this itch and my wolf seem so restless to find him. So I looked for him, I went to the hallways, rooms, canteen, heck I almost entered the bathroom even. All so that I could relieve this itch that's starting to claw at my brain over and over again.

Like it's a pack party, Where is he?!

And then I heard it. The groans, I wasn't suppose to be at his office but my feet carried me there and I just knew that I had to stop but my mind was like a spellbound machine walked until I was in front of his office door.

That's were it hit me. The smell. His smell. But this time it wasn't only his.

I remembered when we were younger and we both knew though we never talked about it, we knew. We could be mates. The spark and tingles that speak more for itself than anything. A fact that which right now I loathed more than anything. Why is it him?

My shaking hand softly twisted the knob of his office and it unlocked providing me the most painful, disgusting sight I could ever imagine. He was in front of her while she sat at his office table facing him. Their moans and groans getting louder as they keep on groping each other.

That's when I felt the bond. The bond twisted painfully at the sight of two people who shouldn't be doing this in the middle of this d@mned initiation to find their respective mates. They shouldn't have done this if they can't wait anyways. If they can't respect their future mate anyways.

I covered my mouth from releasing a sob, my left shaking hand clutching the doorknob is the only thing that kept me standing at the sight before me. I don't think he can smell me. No, I can't believe he can't smell me. Dammit. We're mates!

I felt my heart broke a million times that moment and my wolf howl in pain. Pain choked me as tears fell on my face while I find it harder to breathe.

I hated him. I hate him. And I hated her. My wolf and I knew this girl well. It was her all along. He wanted her. I used to remember when we were younger and we fought over her.

And while they kept in doing it, she caught me and smirked. Shocked, I hurriedly shut the door, then I heard the her ask him if this is okay. As if asking that would make any difference.

Nothing had ever broken us when he just threw his head back and laughed while they kept their grinding and said it won't matter even if he finds his mate tonight. If it wasn't her, he would just keep a mate beside him but her at his bed.

Assh0le.

That night I ran. I ran away from everything. From my parents who found me crying and seem to know but couldn't do anything. To my brother who realized what's going on but didn't stand by me. They all felt powerless. So d@mn hopeless that the only thing they could offer for an advice was to keep it in. It would be better. He would choose me.

He would still choose me after. But that night, after their passionate heat, while I cry outside nursing the pain, our alpha, my best friend, Jax- declared her as his Luna.

All that was left of me that night was my ugly face, ruined dress, broken heart and bedraggled reflection in the water lightened by the moon.