Leap of faith || Reddie

12 ~ Let me Carve the R

Eddie's Pov:

I am. So. Fucking. Gay. It's not even funny.

I. Like. Richie. Trashmouth. Tozier.

Who wouldn't?

Actually, lots of people wouldn't........ but that's not even the point!

The point is, is that I fucking like him a lot!

Just a few days ago I told myself that I was just going through a phase, that I like Myra still, I'm just really.... Really confused.

But nope.

That fucking ran. Me. Over. Like a train!

Not only do I not feel anything for Myra, I've never ever liked any other girl before.

Or guy (OBVIOUSLY besides Richie)

Maybe I didn't even like Myra. I just thought she was a good person.

I dont know? Okay? Im a new gay into this world.

I don't know what to do.

I just came out of the closet I didn't even know I have been trapped inside of for 15 years!

Ever since the night I spent with Richie, I've been up all night thinking. Just thinking

What if he asked me to be his boyfriend? Would I say yes?

Does he even want to be in a relationship?

Would he want me to ask him to be his boyfriend?

Is he a good kisser? (Only ask this because Stan keeps interrupting us) (plus the very first kiss doesn't count)

I was thinking of asking him.. ya know. To be my boyfriend and all that good stuff.

Where would I even start?

Obviously by telling him my feelings and everything, but what's the first thing I would say?

Should I just be straight with him? (Ahahaha)

I MEAN, should I just ask him, "hey, do you wanna be my boyfriend?"

No.. I gotta plan something.

Maybe we could meet at the park or somewhere nice.

Maybe I'm worrying too much...

If HE asked me, I would most likely say yes..

But I'm not sure he will.

He's probably nervous just like me.

Awww he's so cute when he's embarrassed or nervous.

He starts blushing, then constantly re adjust his glasses.

I find that adorable. It's probably and hopefully just me.

Anyways, I was just sitting here on my chair right? Bored as fuck. I didn't know what to do, when I randomly thought of the kissing bridge.

What if I carved our initials?

So that's what I'm doing right now.

Pocket knife in one hand and my other hand gripping on my bike handle as I ride through the morning.

I know that it was weird for me to write E+R since Richie already wrote R+E, but that was before we started, liking eachother.

He liked me then, but I didn't.

So me writing this is EXTRA special.

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Once I finally get to the bridge, I see a familiar someone already sitting there.