Boku no himitsu (english Version)

Chapter 6

For a while we just stood there until I calmed down slowly.
Carefully I raised my eyes recognized the red cheeks of Kacchan and had to smile. It looked so cute that I really had to pull myself together.
He noticed my gaze then broke away from the embrace. Embarrassed he looked past me and scratched the back of his head.
"Why haven't you said anything yet?" he demanded and dropped onto his bed patting next to him to signify that I should sit down with him.
I did but kept a little distance. I still did not know how he felt about it I did not want to pester him.
"You hate me..." I whispered softly and hung my head.
"Do I really hate you?" He asked but then shook his head and answered it to himself. "No I don't hate you."
I looked at him saw the uncertainty in his face.
"Why did it always look like that? And felt like that?"
He sighed struggling with himself. I saw it, wanted to help him but I couldn't.
"I don't know..." he finally answered. "I was disappointed that you didn't develop any quirk, but at the same time I thought again that I would have to protect you even more than anyone else..." He smiled tormented. "I wanted to protect you... But... it seemed so strange to me..." He shook his head, paused and considered. "Then you suddenly come with this crazy power and you were no longer the one who had to be protected..."

I looked at him. His thoughts were completely confusing and what he was saying did not really make sense. Still, I recognized so many feelings he had hitherto hidden. Fear and uncertainty dominated.

"I thought all the time you made fun of me. That you fooled me."
I shook my head. "It wasn't like that" I interrupted.
He raised his head looked at me. Immediately I fell silent.
"I really just wanted to protect you... even in front of me..." he confessed to me. "I did not want you to see me like that. I don't want to be a weakling in your eyes..."
Carefully I took his hand in mine held her and looked at him again. He did not withdraw his hand but clung literally to me.
"I'm really sorry about what I did yesterday. I never wanted that... not like this... "
"How did you want it then?" I asked softly.
"You shouldn't know it at all... But then I saw you so familiar with Todoroki... And somehow with me a fuse blown..."
"So it wasn't the alcohol's fault?" I asked. I had to know it.
"Alcohol?"
I smiled. "Mineta and Kaminari have thrown alcohol into the punchbowl to lighten the mood. That's their version. I rather believe that they wanted to fill the girls. Instead, they filled you up." I chuckled softly.
He looked at me wide-eyed then grimaced. "They'll get it back ..." he growled.
"Already done" I replied folding my hand with his, stroking the back of his hand with my thumb.
It seemed to calm him down.
"The alcohol has probably set only my inhibitions lower... I was that angry yesterday that I would have come to you anyway..." he finally declared and was red again. "I just don't know if I would have done the same things..."
I tilted my head and looked at him. Whether he remembered what had happened, I did not know.
"And before you ask yes I can remember... every little detail..." he added glancing sideways at me.
I smiled with heated cheeks and then lowered my gaze.

Somehow the whole situation was that extremly unfamiliar that I didn't know what to do next. I still held Kacchan's hand in mine and we sat peacefully next to each other on his bed and talked about what had happened the previous evening.
Besides, I still didn't know about his feelings. That he did not hate me I knew now. But was there more? May I hope for more? Or should I better keep my feelings to myself and consider him just as a friend?
I chewed my lower lip while I was thinking about the whole situation.

"Please stop that..." Kacchan suddenly said.
I stopped and looked at him. "Hm?"
His cheeks were still delicately red. "If you keep chewing on your lip, I want to kiss you..." he said.
I blinked at him. My mouth twisted into a smile. "What's stopping you from just doing it?" I started demonstratively chewing my lip again.
Kacchan looked at me growled quietly and pulled me close closing my mouth with his and kissing me impetuously.
Without thinking I wrapped my arms around him and closed my eyes. I returned the kiss gently, while sliding with my fingertips over his neck and hairline.
His grip tightened on me, he shuddered and sighed softly.
He pulled me closer and closer until I finally straddled his lap.
It tingled in my stomach and burned the areas on my skin that he touched with his hands. Compared to our kiss yesterday, this one felt different. It felt proper.
With red cheeks, he broke away from me looked up at me, since I was now slightly taller than him in this position. "But I can't protect you from me...", he breathed.
I grinned at him cheekily. "I don't want to be protected from you," I countered, leaning over to hide my face around his neck.
"I love you, Kacchan..." I whispered, feeling his big hands draw me even closer to him.

I didn't expect an answer. I was satisfied for the moment with what he offered me.
I tenderly kissed his neck then snuggled up against him and closed my eyes.
I felt his lips on my neck, giggling as he began to suck and nibble gently.
"What are you doing?" I asked softly without opening my eyes.
He paused. "I mark you as my property" he told me and continued what he had started. "So everyone can see that you're mine" he added.
I opened my eyes as he distributed soft kisses on the spot again and then raised his head, looked at his work and nodded. "Now you belong to me alone," he commented, looking at me, grinning.
I laughed. I had received my answer. Kacchan had never been good at expressing his feelings. He preferred to speak deeds. And he had just made me understand that I was special to him.
Overjoyed, I kissed him again, letting my hands slide through his hair.

After a felt eternity, we broke away from each other and looked at each other.
He avoided my eyes, hiding his face on my chest.
"You know what I mean by that..." he mumbled.
I had to smile and put myself ignorant. "No? What would you like to tell me?"
He grumbled and drew me closer to him again. "Idiot... I love you..." I heard softly.
I chuckled stroking his hair. "I know" I breathed.
"Hah?" came from him. He pushed me away and looked at me from below. "And then you're forcing me to say it?" He growled, slipping his hands under my T-shirt and starting to tickle me.
Loudly, I started to laugh. It wasn't fair. He knew exactly where I was ticklish and now shamelessly exploited this. I tried to defend myself, but failed. I had not had a chance against him before, when he tickled me.
After a short while, I gasped. His hands moved more slowly and finally lay on my waist.
I chuckled and leaned exhausted against him. "That was mean...", I said breathless.
He looked at me, raising an eyebrow. "Oh yes? But let me say something like that... Although you already knew... "
I could not help it, I just had to grin. I was happier than ever.
Finally, I did not have to hide my feelings anymore.
And even if it would not always be easy with Kacchan. I believed in ourselves and what we had. Together we would somehow overcome all the difficulties.

The end