I'm not good at talking to people, honestly.
Like if it's me and my friends then I'm fine and I'll even talk too much and too fast. If I'm talking to people I'm not super close with though or I find them intimidating for some reason then I can barely get one word out. I suck at talking to teachers. It's ridiculous sometimes. I can't talk in front of a class either no matter if it's a presentation or a Socratic seminar.
My English teacher just told us that we will be doing a lot more speeches and presentations from now on, and I'm terrified.
I stutter a lot as well. It's not as much as a nervous thing but more of a compulsive thing. The only way for me not to stutter is to use a British accent or sing.
No joke.
I hardly stutter when I use a British accent and I feel like it's more me. Like it's easier to use big words because they sound better and I love it. Or maybe I just watch too many British shows on netflix...
As for the singing thing, well sure I don't stutter but I can't sing in front of people so that method isn't very beneficial.
I'm great at reading people, though. That's because I'm observant, and the main reason for that is because I don't participate in conversations, I just watch and listen (or zone out). It might seem sad but I'm comfortable with it.
I'm also naturally introverted so that plays a big role as to why I can't make conversation... or friends. (just kidding lol, but not really)
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So there's my rant on why I both have, and lack, social skills. I'm (mostly) sane I swear.
I hope you find these rants interesting, even if the punctuation sucks.
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