achroous

sixteen

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i did it again.

i waited for you to speak up.

i thought you would explain

and i thought i was worth it.

instead , i learned that

you're dating finn.

of all people,

why sadie?

why did you pick him?

why did you pick the boy

who has been bullying me for years?

i sought for the possibilities:

he was handsome but not your type,

he was mean, and you know it,

he had no respect

and he would flirt anyone.

he wasn't loyal,

he would never love you.

can't you see that?

can't you see that he would dump you

in the very second he found someone else?

he would hurt you, sadie

and i wouldn't.

why does it feel wrong?

why is life always unfair?

i heard that happiness is too hard to find

but i never believed it before.

i didn't know

it aches the most

when you have happiness in front of you

yet you can't reach it.

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